chris:)

2010-05-31T20:18:00.006+08:00

moving to tumblr temporarily. if i can't figure out a way to put the tagboard and links there then i'll most probably change back to here. but mainly i'll be posting there first.

whitegrey-sketches.tumblr.com

can't think of a better name for it. so dun blame me if it sounds too long:)

have fun. holidays are here:)

2010-05-29T23:51:00.002+08:00

considering changing my blog to tumblr.
seems easier to use. more fun too. hahaha. still considering. but like i dun really know. so have to see how first bah:) gonna slp soon. i'm on a korean show rampage:D

2010-05-25T22:59:00.002+08:00

whats wrong with ppl these days. doing stuff for the wrong reasons.

going for cell last sat was a wise choice:D interesting stuff. changed my perspective of some churches. cos i dun think they're actually teaching their members the right stuff. like some actually focus more on wealth instead of god. i dunno. hard to explain without being too judgemental and without naming any. naomi shared a story with me too. and i dun think speaking in tongues can be learnt right? like just by praying. it's more of a gift. yet someone told me there's some cells in some churches where all their cell members can speak in tongues. it's kinda freaky i think. and sort of fake. but no one really knows i guess. it's btw them and god after all. they can pretend for all i care.

another one jon shared was damn funny. like there's this pastor who'll say "can you feel the wind? god is in the wind..." that kind of stuff. but isn't it contradicting what the bible says? cos by saying that you're implying that if you dun feel the "wind", god isn't there? but isn't god supposed to be in you? ahhh. nvm. just some thoughts. quite dumb lah i think.

now i know why my dad opposed to my sis when she suggested changing to that church. hahaha.

but most ppl actually join that church cos of their friends and they think it's cool. cos of the worship and all. which is actually going there for the wrong reason in the first place dun you think?

2010-05-22T00:41:00.002+08:00

wasted my time going to some condo to give out flyers but couldn't even get in...

stupid security guard.

stupid schl.

they didn't even arrange properly lah.

then like almost my whole class went there for nothing.

and one grp managed to get in cos they took cab and the stupid guards didn't check the cab so they were stopped when trying to get out. hahaha. damn stupid. like wth. wads the point of not letting them go out lah. super dumb can.

and i tell u the weather was killer. and stupid ppl got off the bus early so had to walk all the way to the place. when we could have stayed in the air con bus longer and alighted directly outside the place. haiz.

wanted to go cca de. then need do this stupid thing. in the end go there for nothing and the thought of climbing the hill to go back to schl really put me off. so i decided to go home. kinda sad. wanted to see how those ppl were doing. how they scolded ppl. hahaha. oh well. nxt time then.

cos prac tmr. plus cell. somehow dun really wanna go cell anymore. like no purpose. and i find no joy in doing that.

oh yes. i think i'm crazy lah. i borrowed like 6 books from schl library to read. and 2 more from nlb just now. plus the 2 last time which i have yet to really finish. that makes 10 books. zzz. minus one. read time traveller's wife alr. i like how the author uses parts of diff poems to link to the story. interesting and unique writing:)

gonna slp soon i guess.

2010-05-17T20:13:00.002+08:00

horrible. when you can't even rely on the one thing you thought you could to pull up your marks, where does that leave you? stranded on a sinking island i guess. die.

i suck. wth lah. study so hard also like useless like that. normally class test the day before chiong also can get at least B lah. this is like....super duper demoralising can. not just one leh. like a few. and i have a feeling that the rest won't be much better. if it is it's a miracle. and i desperately need many miracles now. to save my SA1. help....i dunno leh. is it the paper that's hard or i'm not trying hard enough? cos i think i studied harder than last year alr. though i know i wasn't 100% prepared. at least also 70% wad. then got this kind of shit results. haiz. esp eng lah. when i got the paper i was staring at that stupid single digit compre mark and trying to comprehend wad it is lah. trying to think wads the total mark. i sat there staring at the stupid paper for like 1 min and then i rmbed its out of 25. and then i just felt like ripping the darn paper apart and shredding it into many many tiny pieces and throwing it away. felt like crying lah. but it's okay. i won't cry over stupid stuff. unless i failed it. then i'll just feel even more pissed with myself. compo also. 21/30 when i should have gotten at least a 23. stupid. they want personal stories right? that's wad i wrote. look where i ended up. zzz. then the stupid marker also. i use repetition. like it's a style of writing wad right? then comment there: repeating redundant. wth man. if i ever find out who marked my paper i'll go slap that person. really hard.

tmr will be spammed with results again. damn tiring lah. dun care le. i shall enjoy seeking comfort in my laptop and youtubing while i can.

2010-05-14T23:37:00.002+08:00

tired. doesn't feel as though exams are over though. still feel kinda stressed and tired. i'll probably be better after slping late tmr though:D

torturous 2 weeks plus of exams. horrible. half of them i probably died. hahaha. esp amath paper 2. nvm. over. shall not talk about it.

went orchard there eat with sheen, gold and potassium. hahaha. even though i felt like going home for some reason. i only realised why after i got home. hahaha. pms. nvm. ate some ex stuff then walked around at 313 somerset. the shops stuff all super nice lor. but all quite ex also. and oh oh oh!!! i think i'm in love with hmv. hahaha. didn't realise they sell so many things. would buy almost half the shop if i could. all so nice....hahaha. its kind of like a clothes shop, cd shop, dvd shop, electronics and gaming shop PLUS BOOK STORE combined into one. so cool. we spent damn long in there. and the only thing we got was sheen's jap mag. lol. but still nice to see and touch. hahaha.

tiring ride home on mrt. packed like sardines. stuffy. then when i was walking home from the bus stop saw this little girl bout maybe 3/4 years old sitting on the dirty and a little wet floor wailing. super loud and high pitch kind. at first i just ignore. then like her bro got pissed with her and began shouting at her which made her cry more. for like 5 mins. ppl were actually stopping to stare lah. but no one actually did anything. zzz. felt like walking up to him and slapping him. hard. and then i had to force myself to walk away. zzz. and then they actually took the same lift as me and the girl was still sniffing and the stupid bro just pretend nothing's wrong. wth. so sad lah. had a strong urge to just like at least pat her head or smth. reach out to her and tell her its okay. that her bro's just being a total asshole. haiz. and did i mention he's fat? super. made me hate him more. not that i'm prejudiced against ppl who have more fatty acids and glycerol...

and wads wrong with teens these days. they have to like write everything they do with some other person on their blogs is it? why do they even wanna tell others about their private stuff. like smth that's so private. as in if u guys really love/like each other it doesn't mean that you have to go around showing it right? shldn't it be smth btw the both of you only? i dunno. that's wad i think. cos i think its disgusting and irritating. eesh.

finally can continue watching my wgm alr:D hahaha. jokwon and ga-in super funny.

oh and i'm ermmm...crap i forgot the word for it. yan2 jiu1. yes. i'm yan jiu-ing a really cool book which contains many extracts from many sketchbooks of many artists/designers/illustrators. rather cool stuff:D thats all.

oh right. cca. hope can start soon and can go back a few more times to help. and watch interesting stuff. hahaha. so sad handedover le. i wouldn't mind scolding. she deserves it. some juniors are really.....i can only say too straightforward. or else they type/write/say stuff without thinking and processing it through that minute little puny brain or theirs. its gotten so bad that i think it's like cyber bullying alr lah. seriously. nvm. see wad happens first.

2010-04-13T18:03:00.002+08:00

IT'S FINALLY RAINING!!!! WOOHOOO!!!!

seriously the weather is....i thought yest night was gonna rain but it didn't and then today's so hot and yet it's raining now. wth. well, at least it's raining, so who cares:D but i hate waking up and feeling so sticky when it's so hot in the morning...esp after i walk up the stupid hill to schl.

i hope i change sit and sit under the fan:D so nice.

handover like so fast. so rush. i kind of dun want it to come. so many things to do before handover. tie up stuff. aar...handover ppt...presents...cards...but then i won't have enough time to study....like now. so i guess it's a good thing after all. slowly getting into my study mode alr. sort of. well, at least i feel like i wanna study. it's just the "getting my ass in front of my table and start doing my work" that's hard. but after i get over that hurdle i'm perfectly fine. until maybe 20 mins later. hahaha. MUST CONCENTRATE.

i really dun understand why we have to do some stupid presentation on spain and tonga for sel. such a total waste of time, when we can use that time to start on our revision. and who's the one always nagging at us to start our revision? the one who makes us do these stupid stuff. ironic huh.

was rather upset at myself today. "infocomm or robotics cooler? infocomm" thanks man. can't you at least tell a white lie? and u said it in front of me. i thought you'd have chosen the other. after all i told u about robotics. seems like i wasted my breath. no offense but i hate ppl who think robotics is nerd or slack. just cos they dun see wad we do. and dunno wad we do anw. they dun see how freaking hard we work during competition period. and then when i tell them i have to go cca to train, they'll just laugh and say: "hahaha. train wad? got stuff to train meh?" believe me, this has happened many times, just that you guys dun even realise it. and then i'm upset with myself cos i feel like a failure for not being able to change other ppl's perspective of my cca after all. despite being the vp. i thought i'd at least be able to change one person's view. apparently not. not even her. and then i'm disappointed with you.

cos when u came to my cca room and stood outside and saw us train you said: "wah, so cool! like very fun leh. i wanna try!" so all that was a lie? cos you dun even mean wad u say. thanks. "friend"

2010-04-04T18:10:00.002+08:00

i really feel like changing my blogskin but i'm just too lazy and busy to do so....i'd rather be watching vids on youtube or smth...haiz. lets just try looking around and trying to find a nice one first shall we:)

can't wait for handover. but its still 2 weeks away. once cca's over i can start focusing more on studies. go for bala's paper days too. cos i feel guity not going everytime:(

super happy yest:) cos someone came back. hahaha. someone i could talk to while i was bored:)

i just realised there's so many ppl's bday in april...that's bad:( cos i just got my allowance and i dun wanna spend it on buying presents. expensive presents. cos i dun think anyone will get me any nice stuff for my bday anw. they can't even rmb it:( everyone doesn't rmb it. when i bother remembering theirs. fine. be like that. i dun want and shall not get started on the friends thing again. makes me depressed.

relationships are soooo complicated. hence i've decided that i'll probably not be involved in any relationships until i'm about 20:D yay.

...so early eat..."shut down..set the table...bring out the food..." damn. stop nagging will you. i hate it.

2010-03-30T18:56:00.002+08:00

sucks. everything.

not that i can't wake up or anything in the morning. i just can't find the strength to get out of bed and wash up and change and go to school. so tiring.

and then i keep finding faults with others when i'm not exactly perfect myself. i can't help it. i'm trying to be real nice.

but i really dun like ppl who are like so obsessed about relationships and stuff. i mean, come on man, how old are they only. so young date what shit lah. like what's the whole point if they know they're gonna break up sooner or later. its not like that will be their lifetime partner right? isn't it rather dumb? when they know that they're not actually truly serious about the other person but they think that they are?

my sis lah. and that stupid guy from church whom i dun even like. he's so short and weirdly proportioned and weird and disgusting. like wth. wads with her taste. anw she's only sec 1 and she wants to do this kind of crap when she can't even get her studies right. my parents should just confiscate everything lah. mp3, laptop, phone. she's super immature and spoilt and inconsiderate lah. doesn't even spare a thought for my parents. and then she still can say wads wrong with loving someone, its not like i can control it. like wth. ITS NOT EVEN LOVE FOR GOODNESS SAKE, ITS JUST AN INFATUATION. argh. sometimes i really wonder how can ppl be so dumb. seriously, young ppl these days....haiz

you know it makes me feel as though i wanna be super nice to them to make up for the way she treats them. but like i keep thinking that they only care about her and dun relly care about me so wads the point of trying to be fillial when my efforts won't be appreciated? it just sucks.

i saw my childhood freind's mum and his sis on fri after dinner. and then i just felt so depressed all over again. missing those days when his parents were still together, when we were in the same church, when we were good friends. super good. probably the best friend i ever had so far. but its over. i miss those times.

you never know how much you miss someone and how important they are to you until they're gone. its true.

and now all i can do is regret. those decisions. that separated me from them.

i just realised. i really shouldn't have come to a triple sci class. i shouldnt be in 4C at all. it sucks. those "friends"...they aren't even your true friends. cos you dun treat your friends like that. they have no idea wad it means to have friends. real friends. friends who'll stand by you, who'll place you before themselves, who really listen to you when you're troubled. or maybe i'm just not good enough for them.

2010-03-17T14:45:00.002+08:00

comp finally over. tiring 4 days. everyday wake up like 6.30 reach junior's hse like 12. haiz. by the time wash up go slp like 1. only slp like 5 hours. come back mon and today i slept for like 10 hours lah. really super tired. mon 12 hours:D hahaha. and i was half asleep during dinner on sun. lol. seriously. i was sleeping there while eating my ramen. well, at least it was worth it lah. didn't go back empty handed. merit award for R1. but we could have done better. maybe 3rd? with some luck. if the sun didn't choose to shine on that particular spot during our run. haiz. lesser random errors. and if both robots could have completed the track in the same run. damn joke lah. jack's team completed all 5 runs during the first try then ours completed all 5 during the 2nd. suay. or else timing confirm below 1 min. shld be can get third de. then become 6th. merit. haiz. nvr mind. i shall be contented. did better than last year. we shall beat wrss someday.

rmb feeling very frustrated on sat night while we were training cos lithium batt spoilt. the stupid wire came out. meaning we couldn't charge it again. damn sad. so had to use green batt which wasn't even ours. thing is, while i was there feeling damn sad cos i felt like our team was screwed cos we had no batt, i needed someone to talk to and i was just thinking. you know wad, there's no one to turn to. all those supposed friends, they didn't even bother sending a sms or wadever to encourage you or anything. thanks sheen though. she's like the only one who encouraged me while i was feeling so depressed and demoralised. thanks man.

i dunno wad to say. its not like they dunno or wadever. how hard is it to just sms? do they even care? idun think they even rmb that i have a comp. wadever man. seems like i'm not worthy remembering. some kind of friend.

thank god though. i rmb before the R1 qualifying round i was damn nervous. in the toilet i was like praying just let us at least get into finals. we're alr out of F1. we have to win smth. get into finals at least. during comp also. my junior said my hand was shaking as i was programming and i didn't even know. lol. but there also damn cold. when comp then suddenly feel damn cold. merit's good enough.

2010-03-12T00:39:00.002+08:00

i'm tired. but i can't slp...haiz.

scared for tmr. safe program completed once but like quite slow leh. haiz. then the 30% programme that i did totally nvr try at all. anw that one the timing also like 34 plus kind. nvr complete before also. haiz. almost though. the second last curve out:(

try bah...

2010-03-09T13:54:00.001+08:00

GO AWAY DUMB PPL:D

2010-03-04T18:46:00.002+08:00

the heat is killing me. literally. its so freaking hot these days. even the wind is warm wind....do you know there was only like 6.3mm of rain last month. thats the lowest ever. really. lowest since they started recording the amount of rainfall. thought it was gonna rain today. but still not raining. haiz. even the grass is like brown alr lah. we're all gonna die. from the heat. or from thw waves that melt from glaciers and will sooner or later submerge the whole of sg.

sat was fun though. cny alumni lunch. helped out there for about 5 hours. cos stayed to pack up. and i missed tuition cos by the time we packed up was like 3 alr. no point going. met my sis and church ppl at tm to watch percy jackson. not bad lah. hahaha. ended about 6.30. then chionged to church for megapraise which starts at 7. loved it. its like really intense worship. for like almost 2 hours. pity the keyboardist though. played continuously throughtout the whole thing. almost 3 hours. damn pro. makes you feel like singing and singing. and even after singing for like super long you dun even feel tired. in fact you feel more refreshed.

now i know wad its like. all those sermons about worship. ppl telling you how wonderful it is to worship and everything. i couldn't really imagine it. like you dun really get wad they're talking about. and you'll just ask yourself is that wad i experienced? maybe? but no. it isn't. cos when you truly experience god you'll know it. you'll know that you did. and i know that i did. very first. on 270210. you'll feel that joy inside. not the kind of happiness when you're with your friends or when you're happy cos its your birthday. its really indescribable joy. so much that it fills your whole heart and there's nothing left for anything else.

kind of sad that that feeling faded alr. but i sure hope i'll get to experience it again. that kind of joy. and refreshingness. if there's such a word. ahahha

no cca and i'm looking forward to it:D

2010-02-23T20:54:00.002+08:00

omg. can't i just have some peace in this house. wth. bloody pissed off. wads your prob lah. i also nvr offend you or wad right. demanding shit. can't use com. can't play psp. also no hw right.

sick of everything. can't even muster the energy to drag myself out of bed everyday and go to schl. felt like collapsing on the train today. just lying down and slp. was in bio yesterday. boring bio. when i suddenly had this thought. wth am i learning about mitosis and meiosis for? in fact, why am i even learning about development, food, trigo formulas, gradient functions,vectors, chemical eqns and a whole lot of crap for? if i won't even need it when i grow up, get out of all this shit and start working? huh. waste of time. totally. can't i just quit schl....other countries even got teens like 15 working alr lah. not like child labour or anything. but like singing as their career. at least its better than being stuck in class half of your life. and at home the other half studying. argh.

emath sucks. yes i didn't really study for that test. failed. not a surprise. expected. but i thought would be borderline fail....disappointed.

eng seems harder to score in too. A is like 27...according to some old-fashioned british examiner's standard. dumb.

amath is easy enough. but sometimes you see the cher dun even like the subject anymore.

our schl teachers mostly suck. either dunno how to teach or can teach but make you feel like slping. so its our fault that we slp in class? i think if lessons are more interesting maybe students won't want to slp in class. so why don't they question the teachers instead of us...

I SAID LEAVE ME ALONE ASS.

2010-02-21T16:33:00.002+08:00

i know i know. i haven't updated in AGES. sorry lah. really no time. every week average of 3 tests. haiz. might be deleting this blog. since i dun have time to update anw.

anw, CNY was not that bad. kinda nice actually. collected $220:D plus a big ang bao in the form of a new sony vaio laptop from my aunt and uncle. and a $500 cheque from my parents:D it was the best cny actually. played mahjong, blackjack...yeah. but the schl's cny concert was totally screwed. cos of the PA. or rather the lousy equipments. super budget lah the schl. all the money that they collected dunno go where.

had our first class outing on last last fri. 18 chefs for lunch then ehub wandering around then bowling. from 20+ ppl to about 10 then less than 10. haiz. at least we had an outing.

i just realised i haven't played RC in ages. haiz. so busy. dunno spend all my time on wad also.

somehow feel that this society's starting to place its priorities on the wrong stuff. shldn't we be building our character more than trying to get full marks for everytest? cos its like in class, some ppl just like shut themselves out of everything, their friends, going out, etc...they just whole day study. even when ppl beside them need help they also dun really care. ask them qns they also do their work finish then reply you. its just their selfish, self-centered behaviour that pisses me off. remedial also. some ppl dun even need to go but they go. i mean, remedial is for ppl who really need help right? so they go to prac more stuff and then can clarify any doubts with the teacher. then those smart alecks go then bombard the cher with more of their own qns. then wads the point of having remedial for those weaker than them?

...i'm not actually blaming anyone here. but these are just some of my thoughts..not that they can't go and ask qns but they can always do it like on other days after schl or after that period right?

i keep feeling that one day our world will be very advanced in technology and everything. like it'll be a very computerised world. like ppl can just talk to other ppl's holograms or smth instead of them. but at wad cost? at the expense of our emotions? just like everyone will be robots. and there will be noevidence of humanity left. that kind of thing. why can't we just stop inventing new technology anw? why do have to invent them? to "make our lives easier"? or to make us lazier?

haiz. if only jesus was still here. i've been having that thought. there would be lesser problems in the world. ppl could be healed, of diseases like cancer that currently have no cure. and the other thousands, millions of other diseases in the world even...that would be nice...keep wishing.

2009-12-25T17:07:00.002+08:00

went for carolling yest. 3pm to 12 am. hahaha. damn fun. esp rudolph the red nose reindeer. cos we sort of added stuff to it at the back of each line:D hahaha. super funny. but the bus was damn noisy. and squeezy. i think about 40 ppl on it lah. slept at almost 4. cos my eyes damn tired but my brain still like too active or smth..lol.

i'm dreading the start of schl.

at least i have my 50 dollars worth of presents:D from my parents

2009-11-17T17:24:00.000+08:00

i heard everything. last night. at 2am.

2009-11-16T15:51:00.002+08:00

feel like i've become 3 years older. since sat. i thought these things didn't happen in reality. but it does. i don't really get it. why pray when god allows these things to happen to you? so...things happen for a reason. god has a purpose for things to happen. so god just allows these kind of ppl to just sin? like that?

i'm so disgusted that i can't even look her straight in the eye. without feeling angry. betrayed.

don't even feel like planning cca stuff anymore. no one cares. at all. esp the one who shld be caring the most and just be the one leading and organising and planning more. that bastard is the one that doesn't even give a shit about anything. and i'm supposed to pick up the pieces? i'm so sick of everything alr. this stupid exco or wadever that doesn't even seem like one. a team is one where everyone works tgt. not just a few ppl and the rest just are in it for the credit, the benefits or the position.

i don't wanna care about anything. cos i feel that its the only way for that stupid asshole to start picking up his own shit.

i made a choice. not to go. sorry if anyone didn't like my decision. but i really had to do something that day.

cos when someone says they don't care, they actually do. or they wouldn't feel so pissed that they feel like not caring.

2009-11-12T16:46:00.000+08:00

going for 2012. tonight. leaving in 15 min. looking forward:)
time for miracles.

2009-11-12T15:28:00.002+08:00

schl sucks. chem and physics test tmr. wth lah. last day of schl also test. not planning to study much anw. today no time. sigh. bio pop quiz today too. on a topic that we just learnt during the 2 periods today. at least can rmb some stuff lah. sucks lah stupid schl. as if they give A LOT OF HW not enough like that. first 2 wks of schl still got "revision test" which is like exam lah wth. in the hall some more. thats like start of year exam can. super pissed. they think we very free or wad. holidays supposed to let us have a break after 10 months of schl can. then they still have alps 2 wks. then so many h'day assignments. then tests. then exams. like we no cca or wad like that meh. stupid. damn no brain lah.

cha guan was like ages ago. but it was nice. and fun. learnt to make tea. and some history crap...tea leaf egg was nice. one free then if want some more one dollar for every egg. which is a rip off. had ice cream puffs though. unexpectedly. nice lah. super shiok. since it was raining that day..and we had nice warm tea and tea cups to warm our hands. and then nice hot tea leaf egg. and then cold ice cream puffs:)

other ppl seem to really love their cca and just seem pretty much bonded. but us...i just wonder. if we had better and nicer and more responsible ppl in it. would it be better? just one person can't change the world. esp when so many ppl just choose to ignore you. they just won't understand. how hard it actually is.

my dad just broughthome a super big teddy bear. for my sis. huge. gigantic. like if it stands it'll be above my elbow. below shoulder. and i wonder again. sigh.

2009-11-05T17:24:00.002+08:00

the schl is damn damn stupid man. the same 3 stalls have been opened the last 4 days. only those 3 stalls. then so many ppl the queue so long. and recess only 30 min.. zzz. damn dumb lah. so nvr eat proper meal for the last 3 days. until today. hahaha. cos me and sheen chiong down then no one at all:D and they extended recess by 10 min. yay. but dr boon saw our class going out like 1 min before class ended. lol. heck care lah.

after schl went simpang eat mee pok...blah. chilli so nice lor. but damn oily lah. hahaha

haiz. new eng cher. cellina xie. sucks lah. feel like strangling her and putting masking tape over her mouth. she damn irritating lah. supposed to watch kite runner ma. then EVERY lesson she'll at least talk crap for 10 min about i dunno wad cos i dun bother listening before she play the movie. SUPER IRRITATING. can't stand her lah. her voice and accent also damn irritating. aiya. just dun like her can le lah.

rain whole day...so sad lah. and yucky. when the ground is wet.

a lot of hw...damn sian.

2009-11-01T16:57:00.003+08:00

super tired. slept at 1am yest. woke at 7 plus today...went out whole day...wanna sleep. nvr take my afternoon nap:( kids need 10 hours of sleep...hahaha. i'm just a kid, and life is a nightmare. hahaha. its a song.

yeah sometimes the smallest gestures can touch your heart. thanks man:) for unknowkingly touching my heart. hahaha

went tete's hse today. condo lah. lounge there. got soft toys:D and TEDDY BEAR!!!! :D:D:D:D i love teddy bears. esp my big one at home. did ss video. and the dumb nobody song...with multiple NGs...

passed by changi jap schl. the one i went to years ago. brought back memories from maybe 7 years ago? i can't rmb too. then i was too tired so i slept on the bus on the way home. tried to at least. while the bus jerked...

my sis and church friends just went park...zzz. wanna go. but so hot. and i'm tired. so i shall just stay here at watch WGM:D

and hug my teddy bear:D:D:D:D yay:)

2009-10-31T16:06:00.003+08:00

omg i'm getting damn pissed by my dad. super pissed now.

all he does is nag and nag and nag at me. wth.

go throw rubbish. sweep floor. bathe. EVERY DAMN THING ALSO NEED TO NAG. WTH.

and all he tells my sis to do is clean the stupid piano. and i have to do so many freaking things and i can't even use the bloody com when she has alr used it.

i'm like gonna burst alr. explode with anger. irritation. everything.

and if i do that i'll most probably get scolded again. and be banned from tv and com and wadever shit.

i hate it. everything. sucks.

2009-10-30T18:17:00.002+08:00

i seriously hate it when ppl treat me like trash. take me for granted. sucks.

and irresponsible ppl. like them.

and ppl who shout/scream at me instead of just talking at a normal volume.

and bimbotic ppl.

and friends who are not really your friends at all.

sorry but i've been unhappy or just pissed off this wk. by certain ppl. but things happened which make me ask myself if they are really my friends or not. i dun think friends are someone you just throw stuff that u don't wanna do to. or ppl whom u rely on only when your other friends aren't there. or ppl whom u use to share in buying a present for someone cos u can't afford it or you're just too lazy to get a present yourself.

this may or may not sound like you. but its only in general.

i tried to be tolerant. to just accept and understand it. but i can't. reached my limit. and i just snapped. yesterday. and today. i just walked off from smth that i didn't wanna do cos i felt that it wasn't my responsibility. since we had an agreement and allocated the duties alr. but i didn't want to be someone that ppl can dump stuff that they dun have time or dun wanna do to. esp when i waited for them to take their own time to put their bags and then they still raised their voice to me. wth lah. fyi, i'm not a trash bag where u can just dump stuff u don't want to. or a superhuman where i can do everything and anything. i'm just a human like you. a person who has feelings. and i don't like the way you treat me.

maybe its cos of ur new friends. actually i think its cos of ur new friends cos you've become just like them. bimbotic bunch of bimbos.

sorry.

2009-10-24T23:45:00.002+08:00

wth lah. super pissed with my family lately.

i whole day nvr even use com then my sis still dun let me use. and my dad also. idiot. "sleep at 12 o clock" great lah. only like 20 mins to use. wth. like i care. idiot.

that time also. just because this time exam didnt score well for chinese and physics then want me get tuition. wth lah. then he want me to find chem, chinese physics tuition meh. still got amath lah. think i very free arr. what makes ppl think that having more tuition is good lah. wth. no brain sia. got so many tuition also no time do hw right. in the end also fail. no brain.

at least mon no schl. can use com more. but still need pack room. super messy. feel like just throwing away all the notes. zzz. need file notes again. cos i think study that time i took out then anyhow dump on the table and floor. so now a few stacks of it...damn.

i wanna watch WGM....

2009-10-22T18:23:00.002+08:00

i hate cramps. pain...

results sucks. lazy type out.

went out with may and fedora a while today. just now. library, popular, BK...

badminton later. dun feel like playing today leh. cramps... T.T

addicted to WGM lately. cca tmr. randomness. hope it'll be fun.

2009-10-21T18:29:00.002+08:00

nehhhball today was fun. hahaha. name created by xiu. captain's ball combine with bball. aiya. actually its mainly captain's ball just that you score by shooting into the bball hoop. super fun. hahaha. cos me jolyn and lydia own them like crap. i'm sorry. hahaha. its okay. still got nxt time.

GOT BACK 7 PAPERS TODAY. like WTH. SEVEN LEH! they wanna kill us or wad. i got weak heart lah. zzz. super funny cos at like 7.50 mrs lee came in with bio then she talking halfway mrs tan also came then the whole class was like OMG. wth. lol. havent even start lesson got 2 subs come le. sucks lah result. a lot of Bs...i think so far only amath and ss A can. zzz. no choice. too late for regrets. thought shld have done better for chinese though.

was being pissed at wby while she nagged and crapped as usual for 20 min. cos my chinese deproved like crap. seriously sucked. last year always A de. often A1. now like B/C. super pissed with wby lah. then she still say we childish, immature blah blah blah. wth. she doesn't even teach properly can. seriously, i can't even think of one lesson when she's not scolding anyone...or crapping. hate her. spent more time on chinese and neglected physics and this shit is wad i get. great.

hope can get like B3 for chem. pull up overall.

so dead. think i irrelevant for eng compo. dunno wad i writing lah that time. wth. nvm. over alr. only can pray and hope. and take comfort in amath...

2009-10-20T16:51:00.002+08:00

too many things happened. want to write everything here but will be damn long. so i give up. not gonna write much about thoughts and stuff..

but smth happened recently which made me question myself whether i'm actually being with the right ppl. as in my friends. i dunno how i've been treating them. am i cherishing them? i think i do. just that maybe sometimes i appear not to. i dunno. cos somehow i dun really feel like i'm being appreciated.

i waited. so long. but none of them actually bothered. so i gave up. and decided to hang out with becky. i dunno is it just me? or do they forget their friends that easily? why do i always have to be the one left behind? waiting. forgotten.

i hate that damn feeling. being left behind and forgotten.

felt angry, irritated and somewhere inside, hurt.

and so even though my weekend was supposed to be a fun one since exams are over and i had a bbq, i felt miserable. it sucked. a lot. at bbq i couldn't even eat. just ate a bit of bee hoon, chicken, beef, curry and 2 cups of drinks. and stoned in front of the tv thinking. even on sunday. when we waited so damn long just for one person so we could all go to service together. that stupid person decided to go to another one without us. is that the way ppl are supposed to be treated? friends? i dun think so. and then i spent the nxt 15 mins being pissed at that person and the whole day thinking about everything that happened.

not blaming anyone for anything. just think about it. is that the way you treat your friends? cos if you dun wan ppl to treat you that way then dun treat others that way. yeah. maybe you have commitments or smth. you're supposed to go somewhere else. sure. but the thing is they didn't even bother looking during break time. i had to go find them and saw a bunch of them there eating together. that's wad pisses me off. like wth.

it hurts man. i just realised.

and now. great. i'll be left behind again. alone. whole empty big damn house to myself. how nice. while my dad and sis fetch my mum to eat together and send her to church for meeting. and here i have to buy my own food and eat. myself. alone

thanks man. thanks a lot.

2009-09-29T18:55:00.002+08:00

bleh. i think i'm going crazy.

yesterday the oven thing was ticking while cooking something and i heard drums. yeah. i told my sis off her mp3 and she told me it was the oven. after i strained to hear it for like 10 mins wondering wad that sound was. now i think i'm stupid. T_T

haven't really started revision and EOY's in like 9 days. T_T so dead man.

i've got sunburn. damn. super irritating. i think last time got a bit alr lor. the stupid sun so freaking hot lah. and its getting hotter. walked for almost 30 min in the SUPER SUPER HOT sun on sat. on the way to church after bala. seriously super hot. so now my cheeks quite red. worse than last time. which is last wk. and my skin super dry. and its peeling. eeeeewww. yuck. i hate it lah. putting super a lot of cream recently. like moisturizer or smth. loreal. lol. sucks. cos i dun think it helps. getting worse...maybe i shld start putting sunblock everytime i go out. zzz.

if someone told me last year that i would be in a triple science class without my sec 2 friends, i would have said IMPOSSIBLE. if someone said that i would be friends with the super smart 2A ppl like kunmei, lydia, ruth, etc..i would have said impossible too. but that is exactly wad i'm doing now. and it seems quite weird. cos i would have nvr expected that.

got 42/50 for chinese test. but i didn't feel happy at all. just relieved that my results weren't too diff from the rest of them. meaning i wasn't super low and they weren't super high. so i guess expectations of myself have changed. not sure if that's a good or bad thing though. the thing is being in this kind of class changes you. at first u might feel that u dun really care. cos even if everyone gets super high marks, as long as u meet ur expectations its okay actually.

but after a whil u start to get influenced by them, so u have higher expectations and you'll just end up feeling more stressed when everyone gets higher than u or you're one of the lowest. even though your results are considered good in other classes and even in your past expectations.

so i'm like stressing myself out. not a lot. but enough to make me feel like giving up on myself.

i should start mugging. now. but i'm not. and i won't. i know.

2009-09-27T18:50:00.002+08:00

havent posted in more than 2 weeks. and i didn't realise it. time passes so fast man..so many things i wanna say. so little time. many things happened. some good, some not that good. the worst part is i can't type it out here. cos i've been trying to study. TRYING. and then i can't call people to talk to them too. cos...well. they're also trying to study.

i feel sick. since the moment i opened my eyes this morning. woken up by my mum shouting at me to get up cos we're late for church. and from that moment, everything just did not feel nice. even though had cos children's day celebration which was supposed to be fun. but i wasn't in the mood to have fun. eyes super tired. just now studying that time super stinging. and it was tearing. now feel super hot.

yeah. gtg go eat. at least oral and compo's over.

2009-09-09T19:16:00.000+08:00

090909 man. SO COOL LAH. once in a lifetime. hahaha.

alone. at home. cos my family went malaysia. zzz. and i didn't go cos of cca competition.

mon...i can't rmb wad i did lah. i think i went to schl. to train. yeah. then tues also. and we waited super long for mrs tan to go home to get the key. oh. and i saw that crazy pork fedora. crazy. oh. i was super happy cos the robot run quite fast. fastest time 15.0....then went bala. at 4.30. did paper for 45 min then go alr. cos i dunno how to do. then he say dunno nvm so i just go lor. hahaha. then went home. talked quite long on the phone. more than half and hour. i think so far that's the longest i talked to someone lah. cool. oh. and the sky was grey lah. so cool. and i sat there talking in the dark. quite fun. cos lazy on lights. hahaha. then after that i felt super stressed and sad. cos of cca stuff...and other stuff lah. then went to play piano.

oh. one thing i learnt: nvr ever play the piano when you're in a bad mood. cos you'll end up being more frustrated. esp when u are like me veery long nvr play alr so keep playing wrong notes.

and so i gave up and turned to drums instead. yah. dunno how long i play. i just sat there playing until perspire like siao lah. cos i lazy on the fan. super hot. then my dad and sis came back...then stop. go eat. slack. play psp until 12. slp.

today...sucks. maybe not really lah. geog and physics extra lesson. went cca room. packed. went tp. took cab. then...eat. walao. the canteen is super far lah. cos actually block 23 there also got canteen but nvr open. so we had to walk super far just to buy food. then walk back again. wth. the "good" news is...the programme can't work there. and the even better news is...the programme can't work on the other tracks. meaning most likely it can't work on the competition track too. super sian. tmr training 9-5. crazy lor. and we are short of laptops. great man. so dead.

pray that we'll get at least top 8. then at least still got merit award. but hard lah this year. stupid wrss. and peihwa also not bad...

maybe i shld go play drums again. help to relieve stress. but outside super hot now. i'm in air con room so its okay...i wanna watch tv...singapore idol..but i'm banned. wth.

2009-09-06T18:37:00.003+08:00

today is a super sad day. feel sad.

yeah. some ppl really do stuff or say stuff without processing it in that big egoistic brain of theirs first. hurting other ppl. have u ever wondered whether stuff u do irritates ppl or hurts their feelings? ignorant fools.

u can be better than others academically, but suck at caring for others' feelings. cos ultimately, ppl look at the way u behave, talk, and treat others-your character, and see if you're even worth being their friend. not your results.

yesterday went to marcus's dad's wake. rest of ss class went too...but he was like trying to act normal in front of us...yeah. so we just played along lor.

today had church...joined jxs. left during ss class. go eat first then go the cremation thing. met up with ppl from ss class again. then after like the closing of the casket we sat bus to mandai there...had service. pastor preached. and the seats were super cold and i was freezing even though i had my thick jacket. or maybe not so thick lah. but still..u get my point. my hands were freezing. as usual. then placed flowers on the thing and went to the viewing hall. i almost cried. ALMOST. but didn't. cos whenever i see ppl cry or upset i'll feel like crying too. then after that went to waiting hall or smth. just hanged around. grp hug, naomi prayed for marcus and then went back.

i actually learnt stuff from the preachings kay. like...
if u don't make your own choice, time will wrench away your choice, leaving u with no choice to make. therefore, don't keep thinking that u will always have time to make a choice to believe god or not or do stuff that is pleasing to god. because actually, u don't. and..
when u believein jesus christ, u will be born again. right?
so either u are borned once and die twice...OR u are borned twice and u only die once. obviously the second one is better right...yeah. so once u believe in god, u will only die the physical death. but if u don't, u will die the physical death and the spiritual one (the one where u have to account for everything u did on earth)

slept on the way back on the bus...a while. and then the bus driver got lost. and didn't know how to go back. and we instead of going to bedok reservoir road, we went to tampines and then to nicoll highway and then to kpe to pie tuas to toa payoh and finally managed to reach our destination. thank god. lol.

oh yah. i probably won't have time to use the com or blog the whole of nxt wk. whole wk cca. wed still got physics and geog extra lesson. 2 lessons i hate the most..boring. can't even find time to go tuition. for test. sian. probably miss part of training in the morning lor. then chiong to schl.

the very good news is....that one robot each in the 2 grps got prob. meaning...that each grp only got 1 robot working healthily. but thankfully both can complete...so. have to find a way to fix both robots fast. or else....super screwed.yeah.

things happen for a reason. yeah. we're supposed to think that way whenever smth happens. like: oh. god made this happen for a reason, so i shld just accept it. but sometimes its damn hard to accept stuff. esp stuff that aren't meant to happen. i can't help but think that a happy family was broken up like that. one person gone. forever. and i dun see why these ppl deserve to go through this. they deserve better than that.

sounds chim when i read it. but nvm...hectic wk ahead. hope i can survive.

hope we can win this for our own sake. for the sake of our reputation.

2009-09-02T21:18:00.000+08:00

i said smth i shld not have said today.

dunno why. it just came out. i have to stop saying stuff like that. cos i hate it myself. so i'll probably end up hating myself.

ah crap. i'm sry. forgive me god. crap lah.

i have decided. that from today onwards. i shall read the bible everyday. or at least try to. even though i still dun see the point. cos i read it like a storybook.

bedtime story.

i think i just pulled out many strands of hair figuring how to do trigo. amath sucks man. even since mr khoo left. its okay. i shall survive. i will survive. with bala's help. hahaha

2009-09-02T20:56:00.000+08:00

TIRED. pe. cca. slept in the car when my dad came though. super shiok. felt like slping when i was eating too..

pe played badminton. he shen was nice to let us play in tower hall. so we played doubles.

blahblahblah. stupid health talk.

getting NEW LITIUM BATT TMR!!! yay. every team have:D BUT. have to charge 8 hours the first time. only 1 charger. so total of 32 hours? yeah. O.o

yesterday was the most fun day i had in ages. went out from morning to night. came home at 11 like that. thats why today super tired. my voice sounded weird too. and i felt super cold. nvm..

went church then bukit panjang plaza for lunch. wanted to go zoo but raining damn heavily. went IMM daiso to shop. i bought nothing. except for a bear figurine. hahaha. cute. with a surfboard. so a bear on a surfboard. went back church. went uncle raymond's hse. watched tv. used com. ordered kfc and pizza delivery to church. went back church. waited. ate. mango cake. NICE. presents. for my mum. surprise. hahaha. worship, games....lazy type details..

but yeah. i feel tired. but i dun wanna slp yet. hahaha. feel like talking to ppl.

cca whole of nxt wk. no time...not enough time. but its okay. i shall try my best to not be stressed. hahaha.

for the last time. I AM NOT A PORK. thats all:)

2009-08-31T18:07:00.000+08:00

OHHH. YAH.

who watched michael jackson history world tour on channel 5 on sat? its damn cool lah. he dance like..continuously. and he doesn't even seem tired can. MOONWALK. hahaha. cool. i like billie jean or smth like that. catchy tune. oh oh oh. there was this SUPER COOL GREEN ELECTRIC GUITAR MAN. SO COOL. got smoke come out leh. hahaha. GREEN LAH. i'm gonna buy a green guitar nxt time.

i wanna learn a lot of instruments lah. but no time. electric guitar, acoustic, bass, drums:D

gtg.

2009-08-31T16:57:00.000+08:00

wlao. blogger seriously needs to improve man. the whole thing just plain sucks lah. irritating. I CAN"T POST PICS. arghhh.

today's performance was damn cool and fun man. had performances by concert band and harmonica...then 2G's singing which wasn't that nice. lol. sounded like ducks...anw. OH. 4A danced to "nobody" damn funny cos there was this guy who's damn gay. and he did a solo. so after their performance everyone was like "encore, encore!!" hahaha. then had some surprise performance by some teachers. and they sang i'm yours. oh and mr zheng sang qing tian and played the guitar. super cool.

after that went back class. some sort of party thing...then blah blah blah. wait for ppl finish giving teachers presents then went watch movie!! with fedora, jolyn, sheen. yixiu went home before we even bought the tickets cos of her dad. lol. just now super angry lah. cos actually i had 2 other movie dates. lol. p6 class and with becky they all. and i gave p both cos i thought a lot of ppl from class would go and it'll be damn fun. but in the end...dunno them lah.

proposal was nice lah. super funny. but a bit sick. hahaha. and the cinema was damn cold. my hands freezing..but ehub cinema colder. that one is super super cold lah. hahaha.

yesterday combined service. start at 10. before church went old airport road the food centre eat breakfast with some ppl from philipine. dunno how spell lah. dunno they come here for wad. but my mum that time go mission trip work with the church staff there so now must bring them around like that lor. so i follow. hahaha.

had buffet lunch in church cos is celebration of 40 DOC thing. then went home rest a while then go church fetch those ppl again. went esplanade and marina barrage take photos and stuff. then went lau pa sat eat dinner. satay plus bbq stingray plus rojak plus fried rice and mee goreng. mee goreng super spicy lah. stingray super nice. hahaha. then bring them back to church and went home.

tmr no schl. maybe going zoo. hahaha. bring those ppl go zoo. dunno for wad leh. like their country no animal meh. lol. today my mum bring them go sentosa lor. I WANNA GO. sentosa nicer than zoo. hope can go lah. or else need stay at home whole day. sian.

oh yah. got amath binomial thing. tmr then do lah. i go watch show first:D

i think wed thurs fri got cca lor. must chiong training. nxt wk competition le. oh but i have cip with 3E on fri. sad. dunno anyone there lah...i shall be a loner.

crap reflections

2009-08-27T22:29:00.001+08:00

thanks for cheering me up man. love you.

things i've learnt this month..

stone, think, reflect. things i've been doing often

ppl love other's acceptance.

no matter how many times someone says there is no right or wrong answer, there actually is one. some more correct than others, some giving u more marks than others.

you can try your best but still fail. literally.

i'm scared of changes. esp ppl changing. u can know them one moment but see a complete stranger there the next.

we've made a pact. after the o lvls. make sure u rmb. cos i'll make sure i do.

yeah you're right. i'm regretting opting for triple sci geog. cos i dunno where i sand now. shld have chosen the same as them. stick tgt. but if that was the case...i wouldnt have met them. but now i feel so separated from the rest...

i try to be happy for the sake of the happiness of others around me. but i can't.

u think you're being sacrificial. but you're not. you're just being someone who's not getting their priorities right. when i tell u to go supervise them u go do it. and dun give me the crap excuse that you're buuilding the bloody robot. cos its useless even if u can build it and ur grp members are there playing computer games. dun piss me off man. seriously. cca sucks. u can be strict to them. but it'll be useless. cos its their attitude that needs changing. they think that leaving halfway or earlier or not even coming is fine. i try to stop it. but when you're alone. and everyone else is against u. u can't do anything. even the pres doesn't care. of course the juniors won't either. one person can't possibly change the whole world. i'll die trying before i even start.

one day. the cca will just...wth does the schl expect us to do with such a low budget. yeah. they claim that the schl doesnt wanna provide more funds cos we aren't winning anything. but if they bloody dun give us the funds needed to upgrade our equipment and buy new batteries instead of trying to salvage spoilt ones HOW THE HECK ARE WE GONNA WIN??? wtf. pissed off. seriously. they're damn biased towards sports. no offense. i understand cos its sort of learning centre of excellence. but they're like overdoing it alr. just go ask any other cca lah.

u guys think having 3 sec 3s trying to lead a cca very easy meh. u try lah. alr normal exco got prob alr. 3 ppl leh. and got ppl only fort he position de. not even serious. wth lah. like that as good as 2 ppl only right. sucks man.

its late. by right can type much more. but i dun feel like it. tired. 2 posts in one day. make up for not posting last wk.

2009-08-27T21:51:00.001+08:00

blogger sucks.

feel sad like almost everyday.

yifang's leaving. one of the reasons. and i actually was stupid enough to skip it cos we had some stupid cca meeting which wasn't really a meeting. i'm sick of it lah. everything. why the heck do we even need to do stuff that we dun like if its a waste of our time?

ahhh wadever. i dun care.

i'm sry but i have to say this. sry. really. but..

wads with the crap about class tshirts lah. just cos lst yr's 2A's shirt was green...we can't have green? then if everyone's from diff classes. all diff colours...does that mean we dun have to make a shirt anymore cos all everyone's class used all the colours alr? ur last yr class and memories belong to last yr. this yr is diff. why can't u ppl just move on with life?

honestly didn't expect u to be like that. thought u understood. but u didn't. its okay i guess. fine. wadever. the 2 words i've been saying damn often. cos i dun care. anymore.

after emath test went TM with becky and friends. bee a damn long time since i did that. super long. i missed it. realised nowthat everytime i laugh or smile just a while my cheek muscles will ache. and i think i know why..hahaha. maybe cos i dun smile or laugh as much as i used to when i was with them last yr. which means that i'm less happy everyday..ah crap. thats bad.

u can know smth but still be unable to accept it. i wonder why.

time quality love language? maybe.

hahaha. "just eat your life,digest it and excrete it out. then your life'll be gone just like that." isn't that supposed to be bad? cos ur life's a waste product. with no uses. no meaning...

2009-08-10T17:55:00.000+08:00

happy bday to you. hahaha.

reached home at 9 last night. watched half of s'pore idol. sad lah. i thought 9 start leh. but its 8.30....): sad. then my dad went coffee shop there watch football. man u vs chelsea. so i watched some korean movie that my aunt lent. watched halfway slp. super tired lor. plaay so much. then i think my sis watched finish and she's an idiot cos i told her to wake me up if i slp. and she didn't. =.= anw i woke up at like 11.50pm. then super blur lah. damn groggy. so i waited until 12 while preparing to slp. and then i sent a msg. and went to slp. hahaha. sounds retarded.

anw i woke at 9 plus today cos SOMEONE sent me a msg and woke me up. lol. then talked a while and i went back to slp again. woke up at like 11 plus. ate breakfast. slacked in room. eat lunch. played psp. went to bathe. use com.

slping early tonight. dun think i'll study for ss. dunno study wad also..thats it.

and i just realised how fun pet society is:D retarded..

2009-08-09T19:34:00.000+08:00

at avery's hse now. i mean mansion... tired after playing rock band for almost the whole day. hand hurts after playing guitar and drums. but its fun lah. i wanna buy man... leaving at 8. hahaha. and i hurt my back while playing some childish shooting game with toy guns. LOL. but its damn fun. i whacked my back against the wall. now my bone hurts T.T

oh yeah. went aston's for lunch just now. courtesy of marcus tay. hahaha. he bought all 11 ppl lunch. THANKS MAN. chargrill chicken plus fries and mashed potato was nice. fries tasted like potato chips hahaha.

HAPPY 44th NATIONAL DAY. hahaha. randomness

tues planning to go schl super early. to do stuff. have to wake up at like 5.30. probably taking bus to mrt myself too...sad. hopefully can slp a while in class after that. or else will be SUPER TIRED.

fri walked arnd for about 2 hours trying to find a present. in the end didn't buy anything besides a super cool cap. hahaha. so after bala on sat i went to buy it myself. and i got scolded again. but it wasn't your fault, if you're reading this. so dun worry. just that my dad didn't specify stuff and i walked around in the stupid hot sun for about 15 min trying to find him. everytime things go wrong its always my fault. yeah. i realised that during my 15 years in the family. thanks a lot man.

planning fun stuff on tues:D hopefully everything will go well hahaha.

not watching ndp. cos its kinda boring...maybe nxt time watch the repeat telecast lor. I WANNA WATCH SINGAPORE IDOL!! hahaha. after ndp. hopefully i get home in time. but i think i won't be able to watch lah. cos of my dad. stupid punishment..wadever man. i still have my psp. u can't stop me from using that lah. esp since i have no hw...

dun think i can stay awake for very long..eyes tired alr.

cause i can't help falling in love with you...

its a nice song...(:

2009-08-07T18:28:00.002+08:00

okay i'm here to blog cos SOME PPL told me to.

tues went out the whole day. hence, didn't have time to memorise the whole chunk of gong han. which i won't bother to anw. and so many ppl cheated. which was quite obvious. but wby was oblivious to it. LOL. wads with my eng man. nvm. influenced by sheen's weird accent.

so we went to swensons. at parkway parade. yes. i had beef lasagne:D NICE LOR. plus a bit of my mum's steak cos i was damn damn damn hungry. cos we ate at like 2 plus. zzz. then had ice cream and fries. which was SUPER NICE. had these malt chocolate balls in it plus caramel syrup:D:D:D:D

then went shopping. just walked around. and there's this shop there. i forgot the name. but i was attracted to all the colourful stuff inside. which were mainly notebooks and those writing materials lah. then cos i was looking for a present for SOMEONE. lol. i went to the purple notebooks there. SUPER COOL LAH. GOT GREEN ALSO CAN. DAMN NICE. is those kind og super good quality notebooks lah. but when i saw the price...one small puny tiny A6 size notebook. costs $18+. crazy lah. but its really damn nice.

so now i have to think of wad else i can get her...crap

then went for coffee. I WAN STARBUCKS OR COFFEE BEAN BUT MY MUM SAID NO. sad...then walked around the WHOLE place. A LOT. then went ikea. the tampines one. to look for one pathetic stirrer. zzz. oh and i saw this small pots of plants which can be put into even nicer white porcelain pots. damn cute. and i just realised i could have bought that for her...damn. then can draw on the pot..crap. i wan one too...nvm. too late.

then went home lor. this wk seems damn slack.

ndp today was quite a failure. not as fun as last yr. thought would be better since no sun. but its more boring. they cut out a lot of parts. even the prayer also shorter. last yr was damn long. then everything went past the schedule. lol. at least we could slack in class during tree planting hahaha.

wonder wads his prob. everything also cannot. go home so early for wad. also nothing to do. no hw..wth

may be going avery's hse on sun. i not sure yet. but i'll probably be grounded or smth for today. stupid ass. wadever lah. dun really care anymore. listen to him for wad. he doesn't even listen to wad i say.

dunno why leh. yesterday got back eng test felt damn sad and pissed with myself. for getting so low.why the heck am i becoming like them? is it because i expected myself to do better or am i changing? for the worse. arghhhhh.

questions questions questions. flooding my mind right now.

why do i get angry when i see her? cos i feel betrayed?

my sis is irritating me. get lost man.

damn. i'm falling deeper and i can't do anything about it.

2009-08-04T11:07:00.001+08:00

bored at home. my mum didn't go work.

later going swensons!!! :D:D:D:D

2009-08-03T14:54:00.000+08:00

YAY TMR NO SCHOOL!!! hahaha
some achievement day:) which means that tonight i can watch tv/use com/play psp until quite late. WOHOOOO!!! hope tmr no HBL though...will DIE.

btw, fedora is crazy. hahaha. she probably won't read this though..lol.

and thanks lah. everyone pangsehed me today. no one go home with me. so pathetic can. so i had to walk to mrt with yixiu and sheen the 2 crazy ppl. make me RUN DOWN THE HILL. siao. hahaha. but sheen couldn't run cos carrying too many jap stuff. lol.

NO CCA!!! for the first time in many weeks... after today and tmr probably will train super hiong again lah. got rgp coming up. MUST WIN!!! I DUN CARE. I WANNA PWN WOODLANDS RING.

i go watch show le:D

2009-08-01T19:06:00.001+08:00

sry long time nvr post. busy with cca stuff. almost everyday cca cos got competition. havent used the com in ages man...in the end also nvr win. but we got into finals...damn sad lah. yesterday missed out 3 cubes or else can get full score. but even if full score also won't win cos other teams timing damn fast. sian.

emoing now. did the blogger thing change or smth? cos now i dunno how to change font and like can't upload photos. my back and finger hurts lah. finger cos the robot metal thing cut then i scraped it again cos punched the wall. long story lah. cos my sis sucked up to my dad and he thought i was bullying her or wadever shit. i was so damn angry lah. hate being misunderstood. the feeling is like can make u angry until wanna explode like that.

after vjc challenge still have to prepare for sep R1. will be busy again. hopefully can cope with schoolwork. cos i dun understand a thing about chem. esp chap 9 and 10. so chim. i think i'm gonna fail my geog test too.

i'm like becoming more prone to anger outbursts now. again. dunno why. almost happened in class once...arghghhh. getting damn irritated.

everyone has two faces. some of us just did a better job of hiding it that others

2009-07-05T17:03:00.002+08:00

thanks to everyone who wished me, even though some were belated. hahaha. love u guys:)
thanks to sec 3s in ss who bought the cake today:) damn nice. coffee flavour:D
and thanks to them again for the failed b'day song yesterday. lol. even though it failed.
and lastly, thank god for letting me be able to celebrate my 15th bday:)

this year's bday was very diff. in a rather nice way. just had a normal sat with tuition and going to church but at least i got to do stuff i liked. like swimming and bball. hahaha. still fun although like only i play while my parents went swimming. the dinner was nice too. chicken wings, bbq stingray, dessert....

the biggest diff was that i didn't feel very excited or anything. cos usually i wouldn't be able to slp. hahaha. just felt that it was kind of fast. see...its a sign that i've matured okay. hahaha. just that i dun expect anything lor. like presents or wadever.

back to schl on tue. sad actually. will be busy again. dun really like schl life lah. everything super rush. dunno for wad also.

bball match was cool lah. sad that s'pore didn't win though. and yes, jordan guys are super tall lah. quite cool also. hahaha.the finals btw iran and china shld have been a draw though. dunno why they disallow that last shot. sad lor. at least they got silver. just see it as a silver won, not a gold lost.

i've decided that i will study psychology when i grow up:) quite cool actually. being able to understand someone well by applying that. that shall be my purpose in life. and the reason i'm even trying to do well in my studies.

2009-07-02T10:26:00.003+08:00

been a long time since i posted. dun even feel like holidays lah. so much hw. so little time. cca also lah. got competition coming then nid train so long. damn tiring. can't believe my bday's in 2 days...dots. dun even feel anything lah. just like so fast. gtg soon. like in 5 min. make cca tee. hopefully the product will be nice lah. not like last time de. zzz. yesterday and today cca. sian. got ayg lor. i wanna watch. but didn't buy tix so only tmr can watch for like 2 hours...thats all.

2009-06-07T17:13:00.003+08:00

sian man. so long nvr post. sry lah. cos last wk whole wk cca training and competition.zzz. then this wk going overseas. lol. malaysia with church ppl.

I BOUGHT PSP LE :D hahaha. red colour. dun ask me why. haven't tried downloading games yet though. i wanna download dj max and burnout but the stupid limewire thing keep interfering even though i downloed the other software alr. damn sian. then go malaysia only got those boring games to play :(

mon to wed: training for vex competition. mon make robot. tues went rulang pri which is at lakeside mrt. 26 stops from pasir ris. 1 hour plus. zzz. at first we build finish robot le. then we go there see other schl robot all the same. structure and everything same. only ours diff. so we were like "...wth" then hz sent an sos signal to jasper in ns camp who then sent a trainer to help us. alan i think. yeah. then we slack and that stupid man go say our robot so small. zzz. heck care. managed to build halfway only. so wed we stay in schl build. jasper sent another guy help us. james. lol. from 12-7. took 7 hours to build finish. when other schls prepared for 2 months plus. LOL.

thurs: woke up 5 plus go lakeside. damn tiring lah. still nid carry all the stuff can. zzz. overall win 2 match. lose 2. but got 1 match i damn pissed. cos we waiting for woodland rings sec to come. cos we alliance with them. then the other 2 schls come le. then they just say we wait a while more, if they dun come then we start. after 2 min...the stupid indian woman who is the referee just say woodland ring not coming, so we start. but we havent even on the robot or put the 2 cubes inside it yet. then we tio shock and immediately tried to turn it on lah obviously. then they stop us and say: we told you to turn it on and put the cubes in alr. you guys didn't listen to wad we said. then we bo pian so wadever lor. they referee mah. no choice lor. kaopei. the point is they didn't even tell us lah. they only tell the other 2 schl which is before we even came. then just suddenly start. then we go complain and say they nvr say then they just keep insisting that they said alr. wth. so we lost. 0 points. at least if we continued without our alliance still lose but can get points right. idiots. stupid bitch lah. wads her prob.

fri: supposed to meet gerald and hz at 6.30 but woke up late. i set 5 alarm also can't wake up. zzz. maybe not loud enough lah. hahaha. then they call me 5 times i thought is my alrm then was wondering why only vibration but no sound de...hahaha. woke up only when my hse phone rang. lol. lee hao lah. stupid idiot. he supposed to go competition then wanna go ayg. even sk alr say national competition is more important then ayg. he still wanna go. wadever lor. dun think he even cares about the cca lah. slacker. chalet games also that time he only do for 1 hour. eat lunch alr then go home. then me and hz have to continue finding. still go tampines walk for damn long to do the games. not the first time also. he need to call teachers ask them stuff he also push to other ppl...irritating lah. anw. lost both match. cos me and gerald not used to controlling the driving part. plus their system the connection and wire thing got prob lah. we move forward the robot will either lag or stop or turn another direction. then suddenly jerk forward. then they still dare say our robot got prob. your head lah. everything also push to us. stupid.

cut my hair just now. damn short lah. walao. pissed alr. my mum lah. force me cut. sian. lol. the fringe level now is less than half of wad i had. zzz. so i trying to make it look like bangs. but the sides also damn short lah. dunno wads that stupid hairdresser prob lah. still say shorter nicer. wanted to go tell her: then u go cut your hair shorter also lah. see whether nicer or not. noob shit. aiyah. no choice. just hope it grows back fast enough. so i won't look so weird by last wk of holidays...but if have bangs might nid to clip. arghhhh!! now i look like ruth who looks like a guy...crap.

try not to contact me from tmr. sms will be damn ex. like 60/80 cents..ty

2009-05-25T16:39:00.002+08:00

yesterday had ss outing:) woohoo!!! hahaha. damn fun. split into 3 grps to take 3 cars to orchard cineleisure. met the guys who went to buy the tix then went burger king eat. bbq turkey bacon is nice okay..damn nice lah. lol. had a lot of fries left over so the guys played some retarded game to decide who eats it. yupp. so like they go use marcus's iphone the gun application then shoot, if u kenna means must eat part of the pile of fries in 1 mouthful. lol. quite disgusting lah. avery go spit the thing out halfway then stuff it back into his mouth again...T_T wth. saw css the benita there...lol. she looks less fat. thats supposed to be a good thing btw. hahaha

went arcade 10 min. played the bball game then went movie le. night at the museum 2. super funny can. damn nice lah. dun understand why some ppl dun like..zzz. after movie went home le. while the guys continued at arcade. and naomi aand ruth went find stuff for their obs.

late today. really late. sian. dunno why leh. my alarm didn't work. and i bet u my sis was watching her stupid boys over flowers on her laptop yesterday until damn late that's why she also can't wake up..zzz. asshole lah.

can't stand this someone anymore. damn bitch lah. u think she's telling one of her stupid stories again right? you think she's talking crap? well i think you're the one who's talking crap. act like some stupid spoilt brat. okay..maybe not act lah. cos you're one in the first place. everything also complain. ppl treat u nice complain. not nice also complain. seriously, i have no idea how ur other friends can tolerate the way u behave lah. u think u damn cool by insulting other ppl is it? you're not. it just makes others hate u more. and i can't stand your stupid face either. wadever lah. anw there's only one word to describe u-bitch.

damn quiet today. didn't talk much. maybe cos i tired lah. or maybe cos i was pissed at this certain someone...zzz.

tmr going cch. damn sian. i have no idea how to go. hopefully my dad can send me..sian. if my class no nid go then i can go cca competition help out le lor. held in ahs. duh. tues and wed. sad lah. or else can pon tues and wed stuff. heard there's the financial literacy thing. sounds boring...

It's not the load that breaks you down, it's the way you carry it.

maybe i shld just learn how to cope with it instead of complaining

2009-05-23T17:59:00.002+08:00

kinda pissed now lah. my sis is irritating me again. as usual. kaopei.

morning ask her help me research some stuff for cos then she say cannot find. then now her stupid laptop can't connect to internet then expect me to lend her. wth. damn selfish lah.can't stand her. bet u later my mum will tell me let her use...everytime also like that de.

morning went bala. surprisingly he finished earlier cos i say i nid go early. hahahaa. like 10 min early. not late. for once.

damn it lah. my stupid sis acting emo now. wtf. in front of my mum some more. damn asshole sia. hate ppl like that. seriously i hate her lah. even if something happen and very obvious is her fault my mum will still side with her. so most of the time i just accept it lah. if i argue also useless..

then waited 20 min for my dad come fetch me. then went home eat. he went pentecost for friend wedding..zzz. then went church. now in church...forget it lah. no mood post le.

got scolded as expected. cos my mum want me share the bloody laptop with my sis. WTF. asshole. just cos she over there act emo. everytime like tht lah. just now ask her help she also dun wanna help right. some more go msg me say is my prob leh. then tell me use my own brain think. fucking bitch. hate her. everytime act like the world revolve around her. then boss ppl around. esp ppl younger than her. seriously hate her. and apparently now she trying to make my mum scold me and let her use the laptop. cb. kp. go die lah. my life would be less troublesome without her can. every morning slp like pig. evertytime nid either me or my dad wake up. even if she wake up she lie in her bed dun wanna move. then her alarm ring she also heck care. wtf. damn selfish lah. then everyday my dad send her to schl. send me to mrt only. so everytime of course she early i late lah. bitch. ask her move her fat ass faster also purposely do things slowly. hate her. hope nxt time she dun go ahs. anw also dun think she can make it lah. results like shit like that. dunno why my mum still so biased towards her. my ss full marks i show my dad he didn;t even say anything lah. bastard. hate my whole family. then he everytime only focus on all the bad stuff. thats why until now still havent show him my chem paper.,and i think they dun even bother lah. dun understand why i'm studying so hard. i could just forget everything. like just let go, become slack. take the easier path. my life would be so much better. why shld i even try to study and get As when they dun even give a damn about it. dun see the point of doing well for them to make them happy since they dun even care...maybe i shld have just not studied so hard last year. thn wouldnt have gotten into triple sci. and wouldnt have to worry about my results being below average...

2009-05-21T18:57:00.001+08:00

woohooo!!! going badminton!!! so long nvr go le... hahaha. bye

2009-05-21T17:11:00.002+08:00

eating chocolate chip cookie:) damn nice.

yesterday's pe was damn slack. captain's ball game super slow lah. passing slow. everything very slow. damn sian. playing with sec 2s more fun:) cos some ppl lah. keep waiting to throw to fedora and ruth....zzz. then waste so much time when the others were like right in front of him...dunno is blind or wad lah..

yesterday had cca, quite ok i guess..but,i had to ask them fall in alone T_T cos huizhen and lee hao at obs breifing. kinda weird lah..damn weird. then i told them go train mm and rgp then i wait for battery to charge finish. can't rmb wad i did while waiting for those 2 to come back. but the batt i think got prob lor. can't charge properly de. keep having connection break. sian. got back 2 mm robots le. but after that yuanhui dunno do wad then go sort of drop it then the motherboard slanted. so may have to fix again. lol. sec 1s programming is....the guys okay lah. their sppeed quite good. like RC tire speed. but not stable. the girls de...haiz. change a few time still same prob. in the end i can't take it go tell them wad to change. lol. but train more shld be ok bah...

wanted go *watch show*, but meeting end quite late cos of someone lor. waiting for his dad fetch so drag until super late. oh yah. got something happen. hahaha. cos jane still tying shoelace. then lee hao wanna scare her or smth go pretend close the lock thing. then the lock haven't lock properly yet, as in the lock not fit into the hole there. then he push down. and the thing locked...=.= lol. then can't open. we tried using force and using hairclip. both cannot. the other side lock le. so jane no choice have to climb over the wall thing. and lee hao go the other side demo and rescue her. lol. damn scary lah. she like gonna fall like that lor. but managed to climb to the other side. just hope we dun get scolded for not locking the thing properly lor...also not our fault mah, how we know can like that lock de....

anw. today and yesterday got back rest of the results. quite good. compared to the rest...zzz. like chem. damn.

geog: 32.5/50 not bad le. considering the fact that i didn't study...much
eng summary: 18/25 this one i dunno how they mark de. from 13 change to 18. lol.
eng situational: 24/30 wow...
eng compo: 26/30 WOW. lol. highest in class...

the compo is i read the ahs compo book thing then got the idea. so i change it a bit. hahaha. cool lah. first time trying that method. so i guess nxt time i read more short stories then use the idea and edit the storyline. it works:)

i think that's all le lah...for the results. the rest i wrote before.

oh. today ss switch with sel. then some ppl wanted to change grp for show and share. ms noriff say okay. then naturally, the cliques got tgt. bennett suggested 2D grp tgt. then split into 2 grps. then 2A ppl also grp tgt. then ms noriff face a bit not happy le. had photo taking. come back that time she sort of talked to us lah. not really scold. but she say. now we're 3C' 09, so we shld try to bond tgt and not stick to 2D'08 or 2A'08 or PRCs. which i thought kinda made sense lah. cos that's wad we could all see in class. i mean beginning of the year if u haven't started making friends with others ok lah. can see why you'll stick with ppl u noe mah. but for goodness sake its alr 5 months. gonna be 6 soon. shldn't u ppl like stop clinging on to past memories or wadever and mix around? at first its okay. but after a while it gets damn irritating. for everyone. yah. so i guessed she was pissed esp at bennett with the way he talked lor. its damn obvious lah. but not sure whether those ppl realise. cos when someone's talking about u of course you'll try to defend yourself and make excuses. but i thought it made sense lah. and for some ppl who thought she was crapping and said that u hate this kind of crap talk then why do u even do that? like keep sticking to only ppl u know. u thought she was crapping only cos she was talking about u guys and u didn't want to admit that u were in the wrong. that's wad i thought about wad u said. and seriously, u shld just stand in other ppl's shoes and think about whether wad miss noriff said made sense. cos i think she really tried her best to not accuse anyone of anything and just say in general lah. and she was like almost tearing if u haven't noticed. almost. yupp. that's all. no offense, but that's wad i felt lah.

thought that the 2A ppl quite nice alr lah. at least they're trying to mix around. but some of the 2D ppl still...dunno how to say. u shld noe who u are. but the rest are nice lah. most are nice actually. and for those 2D ppl who read this. dun worry lah. i'm not talking about u guys. cos the person i'm talking about doesn't even come to my blog...lol. but if that person happens to see this then good for u. i won't take back wad i said.

realised that when i'm deep in thought i'll not respond if u talk to me. so dun think i angry or dao u if i nvr reply. lol. yupp. but if i angry i really will sit there and just shut up.

2009-05-19T18:45:00.002+08:00

...feel tired. got back almost all papers today. except geog. zzz. wlao. its like every lesson get back then so nervous then when finally okay le then nxt lesson give back paper again...

not bad lah. can't rmb though..ermm.

emath: 64/80
amath: 65/80
eng compre: 15/25 ( zzzz. disappointing.)
physics: 74/100 ( wow. impossible. a lot of ppl only 50 plus leh. how can..)
ss: zzz. no need say le lah. later kenna suan some more..

yah. that's all. geog tmr. sure die de that one. REALLY die. cos didn't really study hahaha.
ss kinda unexpected though. like how can lah. the first test i fail leh. how can suddenly full marks de...i think the marker got prob lah. lol. recess that time we were still speculating who got full marks. wth. i was stoning when miss noriff announced the ss thing. then i think she called my name. lol. yah. but main point: i was stoning. then only heard some ppl screraming. lol. and some idiot sitting nxt to me whack me so hard. yah. then everyone staring at me. so i guess i was lagging. then i thought: huh? did she just say my name? huh? u mean i get full marks? how can? impossible lah. confirm count wrongly de.

then after 10 sec...: WTH!!! I GOT FULL MARKS???? WHAT?!??!!? shit. so unexpected

yupp. lol. a lot of ppl also didn't guess it would be me. hahaha. i also didn't expect. like wth. hahaha. my paper there got one qn actually is L4/6 de. but the teacher cancel the 6 write 7. lol. so i think is she see i one more mark full marks so just give me lor. LOL. wow. i really thought i gonna fail leh. cos that time i chiong like siao. and i write the last sentence just nice 1 min before finish. no time check..wow. hahaha. must thank god. cos i was kinda depressed about my chem. so i guess everything happens for a reason. and i fail one subject doesn't mean won't get good results for the rest. just hope my geog dun pull it down..

damn weird lah. chem i lowest in class. shld be lah. 51 leh. then ss highese. i think my brain a bit got prob or something lah. my results range too extreme le lah.

but still..whether good all bad. everything's in god's hands. hahaha. so there's nothing i can do but think of a way to let my dad sign it without scolding me...zzz. hate chem

2009-05-18T16:15:00.002+08:00

I AM PISSED. at everything. seriously. this life sucks. i hate it.

got back some results today. sucks man.

bio: 66/100
chinese: 61/90
chem: 51/100

WTF IS THIS LAH. can't believe it. i used to count on my chinese getting A1 if not A2. now its like...B3. dun even have ONE PATHETIC A. except maybe amath...WTH. screwed mye. super damn pissed with myself. when i got back chem paper i know i get very lousy results. but nvr expected it to be so low. i thought that the lowest i could get was at least 60. then after i got back i sit there 5 min dun wanna see the marks. then heard may got 52. and i was wondering..WTH. so low? i shld be able to at least get more than that right? so i happily flipped over the stupid fucking paper. and there it was. big fat stupid 51. WTH. felt like just crushing the whole bloody paper and throwing it away in the bin. i hate mrs lam seriously. she set hard paper nvm lah. then her marking scheme also so damn strict. bloody hell. thanks a lot lah. she just ruined my results for chem. SA1. and my dad's gonna scold me like shit. damn it lah.

after i got back i seriously damn pissed. bad mood rest of chem lesson. and those ppl who think i'm sad or wadever. thanks lah. but not sad. just super damn pissed. like. how the hell can i even get a 51? i nvr get so low for any subject before can. but thanks lah. at least eng okay. mrs hudd was nice. let us watch slumdog millionare. that show is nice lah. haha. lifted my spirits a bit. before some idiot last minute tell me got cca. wth. then i over there watch halfway pissed again. at least can tell like during recess nxt time? i got plans wan leh. yah. planned to go buy present for yan min which is her super belated bday present. and i promised to give her by this wk. so didn't go cca. even if i go i'll be in a bad mood during meeting. dun wanna affect other ppl mood also lah. so i just dun go lor. first time i'm choosing friends over cca. so i guess wad i said at the interview isn't really true lah. that cca comes second. after family. cos now i doesn't seem that important to me anymore. like hius sheung wrote in the letter to cheer me up. friends will always be there. yah. so..thanks guys. think i'll be putting cca behind. studies first. slacked too much alr. seriously changed since last yr. dun see the point of studying anymore. if only i could just drop it.

stressed now lah. wondering how and when to show my dad the results. he says that as long as i try my best its okay. but i know when i show him he'll still scold me. cos its not okay at all. why is this stupid world only caring about results anw. i hate it. bloody irritating. so wad if u get good results? that won't help u when u grow up will it? not like at ur job they'll ask u go calculate how many moles of water there are or wadever shit.

yah. still damn pissed lah. anw. just now went buy the jewellery box for yan min. hahaha. its kinda nice actually. but quite ex. for something so small. lazy post pics. nxt time....procrastinating again...yah. and we bought marshmallows to pput in the box. so cute. lol. its nice lah. for the first time, i agree with amanda's taste.

thats all. there's cca on wed i think. but i really dun feel like going. maybe will be better for some ppl if i dun go lah. i dunno.

too late for regrets. only thing i can do now is pay more attention in class, try not to fall asleep, and study earlier in advance for exams. hope eoy will be much better.

you know what? i think i'll just throw my chem paper away. like right now. that'll solve everything.

2009-05-15T09:47:00.002+08:00

brief description on wad happened last week..zzz

had exams. duh. lol. but played tap tap revenge on jolyn's phone for like almost everyday lah. yah. then fri cos we dun have e lit. so we waited 3 hours plus to go make ic. sian. went simpang eat lunch. then came back. played heart attack, animal game blah blah blah. lol. fedora's invention: the swan. damn funny. like when the game speed quite fast then swan must be slow and graceful. super funny.

after that went jumbo, some seafood restaurant eat dinner with my whole family. meaning aunty uncle grandma...yupp. got crab leh:):):) and dessert: mango pudding :D:D:D:D:D LOL. after that drive back home that time saw this lime green sports car. which is super cool and damn damn nice. damn cool lah. shld see the way the person drive can. he just cut into the line like so easy lah. LIME GREEN LEH.

sat...no tuition:D saw some filming thing at my house the carpark there...zzz boliao ppl lah. last sat also have. that is at the 1st floor. not carpark. driveway i guess. quite cool. got pic but quite blur. dunno my phone lah. idiot de.

sunday: parent's day performance by cos and ss kids. quite nice lah. but we were forced to stand at the front of the stage and do actions. wth. some of the cos leaders only lah. sian. then came home. studied. my dad went buy stuff for my mum. and he helped me buy hersheys cookie and cream chocolate give her. hahaha. cos i nid study mah. so he go buy i pay him lor. yupp. then went dinner. had crab AGAIN. and i dunno how. but i think the shell poke my lip. and then it was swollen. lol. only one part lah. dunno lah. almost everytime i eat crab like that de.

yesterday went tampines 1 with jolyn and may and edna and some last yr 2D ppl. i dunno wad i was doing there. lol. cos i dun wanna go cathay watch movie. so far. then also need go home early teach my sis sci. wth. yah. lunched at subway. where about 7 of us ordered the same thing. EXACT SAME THING. LOL. i think the guy making feel damn sian also. make the same thing 7 times in a row. lololol. then went tampines mall walk around. went toys r us. where we met some idiotic ppl from pasir ris sec i think. walao, damn ahlian lah. then cos we crowding around some toy thing. then they wanna take something from there they go say in this very rude voice : excuse me. twice. like we can't hear meh. and i hate that arrogant look on their stupid faces lah. like they own the place like that meh. wth. then the situation like quite awkward, so we left. hahaha. walked round some more. met more ppl. from ahs. then went the open plaza there awhile. play tap tap until no batt. and went home...

btw. i think i'm lagging but i just realised today is friday. which means tuition tmr. WTH. I DUN WANNA GO BALA LAH. EXAMS ALR OVER CAN'T HE JUST GIVE US A BREAK. super sian-ed now. sunday maybe going my grandma hse. for fun. hahaha.

2009-05-14T18:50:00.002+08:00

i am damn bored. i lazy post everything lah. maybe tmr. maybe not at all.

but this time felt so unprepared for exams. esp geog and bio. sian. and chem. i only have confidence in amath lah. wth. which is quite weird. tmr no schl. shld be packing my room bah. or playing xbox lor. sick of com le. after dunno how many hours

2009-04-27T15:38:00.003+08:00

yesterday's star awards was damn damn damn nice. hahaha. but some ppl wear very weird. like felicia chin. hahaha. didn't expect joan peh to get best actress though. cos got ppl act better than her. maybe cos the xiao niang re show she really go pick up the worm and eat lor. so they give her. hahaha.

possibly the last time i use the com before i start mugging for mye. seriously lah. my grades are dropping like wth. so i shall start my mugging from tmr? yah. must xia ding jue xin. or else will keep procrastinating.

yesterday cosunday and celebration for mandie's bday. hahaha. cos was fun. i was the photographer and damn. have to do video. sian. after exams bah. chem test results was...bio was!!! hahaha. shld know wad i mean lah. chem getting very chim now. hopefully can cope lor. lol. many failed attempts to smash mandie's face into the cake. pics after mye.

eating CHEESECAKE AGAIN:) sooooo nice. hahaha. the cake just melts in ur mouth. hahaha. and duno why. my teeth there not pain le, amazingly. and i can eat properly. the sad thing. i'm broke. so no money eat. hahaha.

tmr paper 1 le. so fast lah. but...i guess i'm ready lah. still not sure if shld do si han or gong han though...just revise later lor. for now... FACEBOOK AND YOUTUBE:):):):):):):) hahaha

2009-04-24T16:56:00.002+08:00

super tired. my hand aching from yesterday. cos i bring back bio file, bio tb and geog tb. damn heavy. then i all the way use left hand carry. so now muscle aching. dammit. then yesterday night also got badminton. play first game only hand pain le. cos of wed incline pull up. so after that i nvr play le. damn sad. but nxt wk shld be able to play more bah. cos fri public holiday:):):) but also will have more ppl come then no space play. kinda pissed with some ppl there also. but lazy explain lah.

chem test today sucked. didn't really study, cos yesterday after game really tired. so i think i'm gonna fail lah. felt that the mcqs a bit hard. behind part. or maybe cos i didn't study wad they tested. shld be ok lah.

tmr chinese oral. damn busy lah. a lot of stuff clash. so inot sure which one i shld go for. cos oral 10.40 then bala 11 then cos prac 2. crap. and usually bala ends at 2. and oral sure drag de. that time also lah. make us go so early in the end started one hour later. sucks.

see how lor. but i think my parents dun even noe i tmr got oral lah wth..sian. dun feel like going oral tmr. my teeth damn pain. can't pronounce properly. wisdom tooth coming out. seriously. very early right. damn pain lah. i can't even bite and eat properly now.

then tues paper 1. sian

oh yah. just had cheesecake from the american club i think. DAMN NICE LAH. the cheese taste very rich. maybe a bit too rich. hahaha. then the bottom got a bit of chocolate. shiok. if got chocolate fudge will be nicer:)

2009-04-23T19:01:00.001+08:00

right now, i really can't stand some ppl in my class. damn pissed. u wanna know why wait i got time to post properly. bunch of assholes

2009-04-21T20:14:00.003+08:00

i'm damn bored. and tired. doing some stupid physics ppt now. sian

just now 2.4 run. super sian. went there with jolyn and gang. took bus 31. the first one arrived just when we reached. but...damn crowded. whole bus full alr. even though its double decker. full of ahs students. thats why our schl shld provide buses and not let us make other ppl pissed for crowding in public buses. yah. anw, the ride was damn long. i sit down there gonna slp le...and then we fianally reached. and the whole troop of ahs ppl went walking along the road beside vjc to ecp. yah. reach there a bit late lah. but guys start first. then girls. i run halfway suddenly got very bad stich lah. super pain. at first only the right side then slowly spread until my whole stomach there damn pain. i can't stand it so stopped running. felt like puking lah. then i walk awhile then see the front a lot of ppl so i chiong sprint. then sprint halfway damn pain again and my mind was like &*&%&*^&*%. hahaha. cos one part say: just chiong lah. reaching alr. a bit more only. then the other part was like: aiyah. reaching alr anw, so just slow down and walk there lor. not much diff anw. hahaha. so in the end i jog there. lol. can't rmb my position though. i only saw 1_7. not sure wad that number is. shld be 137 bah. cos at first i tot it looked like B7. hahaha.

then a wonderful turtle amazingly came swimming up to me and offered me a drink of water. and when i wanted to gulp it down, SHE whacked my head and said: sip!!! sip!!!

LOL. thanks anw. water is nice:) hahaha. randomness

geog test was okay. but didn't really understood the qn, so i write a whole chunk of crap. like a lotof stuff lah. cos one cause got many effects which in turn lead to many other effects so i dunno where to start. and wth is wrong with all the teachers lah. nvr return us the tests the leh. i wait until very pekcek le lor. esp that stupid wby. walao make us do so many compo. then still dun wanna return. ass.

kay lah. i go do ppt le. bye:)

wanna pon schl tmr. really very tired...

2009-04-19T16:51:00.002+08:00

bored. not doing hw. except chinese. hahaha.

i hate napfa. tues leh. damn sian. then the nxt day got incline pull up and shuttle run. wth they wan kill us lah. can't be bothered post. i go watch show:)

this too, shall pass. thats my only hope for now.

2009-04-18T19:14:00.002+08:00

wed had sit and reach. during pe. quite easy lah. the jiao lian made us run for 10 min before we do the thing. but a lot of ppl just walk. then see he come then pretend to run. damn funny. so the 10 min pass like super fast. i got 48 haha. actually 47 lah. but he say those who wear shoe he help us add 1 cm. so 48 lor. very good lor. rmb last time my max is like 41. improve by 7 leh. hahaha. got a lot of tests lah. bio was okay. easy compared to the one on nutrition. then eng was okay. i slowly write draft then after that left 10 mins then i chiong my actual summary. hahaha. but i think i shld have all the points lah. just nice 150 words. physics sucked. like shit lah. think i'm gonna fail le. the calculations part all so damn easy lah. make me study that part like siao then in the end so easy. then the last part i dun even understand the stupid qn lor. so i anyhow do. then like no time also. so dun care. but my scale 1 cm: 2N. then my answer i forget divide by 2 again. damn.

yesterday cca super fun lah. but we delay a lot. cos of some ppl lor. walao. cos we go T3 first mah. then we wait for them like 40 min then still havent come leh. we even had enough time to go buy all the present lor. hahaha. we bought the massage thing. 7 of it. then buy toblerone as consolation prizes.

damn fun. but we got nothing to do so walk around lor. then if the grp lucky to meet us then we give hint. hahaha. first went to find kia qian to put our bags and stuff. then i also dunno go where. think we go eat lah. yah. then just walk around lor. then the games finishing that time. at 6.00pm. we say if the late every minute minus 10 points. hahaha. everyone late. LOL. then see them chionging towards us damn funny lah. then give prize and go home le. the sec 1s damn cute lor. they at the train there keep hiding their face cos dun wan us take pic of them. hahaha. but quite sad lah. last session for sec 4s. and its like last session for them to bond also.

later then post more. i go eat le:)

2009-04-14T20:53:00.002+08:00

seriously. i dun a bloody damn about anything anymore. u wan scold me or wadever. up to u. idiot. i come home early, use com, u not happy. i come back late, u not happy. then say but i allow u to use com without telling me. wth.

i hate this life. its killing me. seriously. so many things happening. not good things obviously. yah. but thanks to turtle and sheen and ruixian for helping me out. really thanks a lot:) u nvr know how much u miss someone only when they're gone. and i miss u :( at least you're still here. not somewhere far away.

yesterday on the bus i suddenly felt like i had to apologise to her. dunno why also. was just staring out and thinking of a lot of stuff lah. she said she wasn't angry le. but i thin she still is. cos she's been avoiding me lah. hate this kind of stuff. damn irritating. bei wu hui de gan jue ye hen nan shou. like damn frustrated. and u keep thinking: wad can i do to make that person understand??? yupp. like gan jue hen wu nai. and i take back everything i said. i the recent posts. cos it was like just to vent all my frustrations there. actually dun even noe why apologised. wasn't really my fault anw. but after much counselling/talking with turtle and sheen...i decided to just di tou ren cuo. like turtle says: sec 3 only got 3 ppl this yr. u can't afford to have this kind of things happening. which i kind of agree.

i dunno lah. i dun really like to handle these things. irritating. yupp. so u know wad? if u dun trust me anymore or still think that i suck or wadever...just go ahead. no one's stopping u anymore. like my dad said. exams damn near le. must concentrate more on my studies. and guess i'll just hope that it doesn't affect me that much.

cca today was kinda fun. hahaha. wait. my thoughts all messed up le. i start from yesterday:)

yesterday.
went for cca. heard that got some "vip" gonna go our cca room. so mrs tan say we gotta clean up by 3. then 2.30 the room still damn messy cos jack they all go take out everything and repack it. yah. then mrs tan suddenly come in then see still so messy then freak out. then help us pack. ahahaha. say at least make the room presentable. just hide all the rubbish and junk. dun care. later then throw. LOLOLOL. damn funny. so we chiong. then finish le. she go out. then we open all the curtain so can see when they coming. then at the other window there jane suddenly go open the window then kan dao one guy staring at her from there. ahahahaha. super funny lah. then the outside ppl still go vid and take pic. LOL. anw,yah. ended up we pack for nothing. cos the stupid vips got no time. so they nvr go our cca. wth. yah. then nothing...

today
sel got drama workshop which is damn lame lah. the stupid woman keep picking on me...wth. idiotic. its kinda fun. but damn damn damn lame. ended damn late also. 3.15 like that. then chiong for cca. jack tried to beat my timing. but failed. pathetic. after half an hour, he finally got 14.6. but after that i finish eating i go in run my program once then 14.4 LOLOLOL. in his face. damn funny. then i go edit. make the line segment 6.8k speed. then he say sure cannot de. but just run. then he say if can complete he give me one dollar. ahahahha. guess wad??? yupp. completed. but is one part out by a lot, t hen later continue running. LOLOLOL. super funny. my robot loves me:) hahaha. 14.2 leh. win wrss lor. hahhaa. nxt time then upload the vids from last time. then batt charging so play truth or dare. hahaha. funny. took a lot of vids.

tmr cca. a bit sian lah. hope everything works out. even if it doesn't. i dun think i'll mind. cos i've found someone else who can talk to me. comfort me. hahaha. after losing touch for so long...

really miss her man. so long nvr meet le. just now talk damn long. hahaha. quite fun. and at least i feel safe telling her stuff...

2009-04-06T20:17:00.003+08:00

woohoo. i have 3 blogs now. hahaha. 3c, this one and ahsrc. lol. probably won't be updating this one...just now had exco meeting with jack aaron amanda and weiling the extra. LOL. just kike discuss wad to do on wed and the cca outing stuff lah. about 4.30 went changi airport to prepare for the games. walked and took photos until 5 plus then went home. oh and we saw our alumni. not sure wads her name though. in jasper's batch. no wonder she looked so familiar and kept looking at us. and some retards wanted to ask her if they could take pics with her. LOL. lee hao no ball. and poor me had to be thick skinned and ask if can take photo of the thing in the background instead. its an excuse btw.

forgot to add on...yesterday was naomi's bday. ss was damn fun. we "bullied" poor lydia. but i dun think she minds though. took her sweet then she realised then while she chased fang ren for it we hid her bag. which was pretty obvious but she was kinda lag. yah. or maybe just plain dumb lah. then halfway norman and mariko came in with a CHEESECAKE for naomi. hahaha. disrupted lydia's lesson. but damn fun. and nice. the cheesecake i mean.

thats all. i go update ahsrc blog le:) and maybe change the blogskin

2009-04-05T17:22:00.003+08:00

...super stressed out now. cos got a lot of hw. eng table for proposal, chinese zuo wen!!! wth. so dead lah. so i think i post then off com le. won't be using com often. cos now got a lot of things to handle.

tues had cca interview. which was bad. supposed to be vivian first lor. then she nvr come. so i go 1st. sadly. mrs tan nvr come...so ms lim inside. walao. go in only then see 1 chair in front of whiteboard. then exco sit 1 row in front. and only front row lights and fan on. so like the spotlight shine at the chair there. yah. lasted 30 min plus. they asked super a lot of qn. 20-30 bah. a lot damn hard and i dunno. so i say dunno lor. yah. decided to say i wan vice pres postition cos pres like responsibility hen da. then i scared can't manage studies and cca well. but vp still ok. haha. got 1 qn is "what do u think our cca have problem with or something" then i go suan some ppl. say they always go there dota. then not focussed. hahaha. damn funny. but i nvr laugh. cos very nervous. after that i went out my whole back wet lah. super hot. then i go tell jack jiaqing heard then say why i nvr say earlier. cos he also feel very hot. LOL.

after that stuck in another room beside interview room for 30 min plus again. can't go out. cos they dun wan us tell the rest the qn i think. dumb. so bored lah. so i play with the stuff toy dog there. super cute lor. later put pics. then finish slack in cca room while sec 4 discuss then go home.

fri had handover. so sad. sec 4s leave so fast lah. other cca dun even have interview yet lor. results:
pres-lee hao
vice pres- me..lol
secretary+treasurer- huizhen. poor thing
welfare head- jane. random
logistics- xinyu and gerald
yah. hz damn patheticlah. she must do a lot of stuff lor. meeting must write minutes then still collect money record in book blahblahblah. ke lian. then when exco got briefing she over there stoning. lol. when she suppose to write stuff down..

after that i went home and the rest went whitesands kopitiam to eat. then reach home my dad say later fetching my mum at whitesnads then go kopitiam eat...wth. so i could have eaten with cca ppl...sian. the worst thing is. i dun think they even care that i'm vice pres lah. i tell my mum she just say ok. wth. not even a word of congratulations can. still dare call themselves my parents. even those ppl who i nto very close to also congratulate me lah. wth. you shi hou zhen de bu zhi dao wo zhe me nu li shi wei le shen me. pissed off. so i emoed the whole night while watching tv. and cos i was so damn tired, i missed survivor. at 11.30. great. even more pissed with myself.

then yesterday went leisure park kallang to eat dinner. got scolded cos i was "defiant". yeah right. the drink also not mine right. is my sis drink then dun wan already mah. then he go drink. then he expect me throw for him. think u wad? doesn't mean everything u say i must follow and do okay. i have wad i want. and i dun want to be like a dog or wadever and just do anything u say. sick of it. so i said its not mine. i'm not throwing it. so he sort of banned me from using the com. yah. but he went out and i nid to do my "hw". yeah. so my mum let me use. everytime like that lah. walao. biased towards my sis. i hate biased ppl. seriously. they super biased some more. she say she wan anything they just see 5 min then buy for her le. but i say i wan anything they dun even care. they must wait super long then when i keep saying then will let me buy. but still must go there see super long then decide whether to buy or not. idiotic.

kay lah. must go le. bye. pics some other time

2009-03-30T21:37:00.002+08:00

for the first time this year...i came home and my mum was at home. amazing.

had korean noodles+pizza+salmon..lol. jap, italian and korean food. how wonderful. plus mango and grapes. lol. today was okay. went cca continue do board. we do the words finish le. but can't stick. LOL. and the track which i cleaned for more than 1 hour became dirty in like 10 min. how nice. idiots.

dunno them lah. but i think now kia qian and lee hao claiming that the loco bot which i used to train last mon is supposed to be for their grp. after jack helped us edit the robot wheels and change motherboard. walao. freaking pissed with them already lah. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU GUYS MAN. YOUR BRAIN OR YOUR EQ GOT PROB IS IT? its like everytime competition u guys get to choose the robots u wan first. and then we get the so called left overs. YOU THINK YOU FUNNY ARR. bastards. i seriously can't stand u guys anymore can. u not happy with wad i'm writing i dun give a bloody damn. u dun wanna make me pres i also dun care already. wo yi jing ren ni men hen jiu le ok.

f***. first time i'm so damn pissed with my cca ppl. its like even as i'm writing this my blood boiling already lah. and i feel like shouting everything in their face. cos typing it out here is not enough. they won't even care anyway.

u think u big arr. pres so wad? doesn't mean u can do anything and everything u wan ok. being the pres means that u have to take care of the cca. AND TAKE CARE OF THE WELFARE OF YOUR CCA PPL. NOT ONLY CONCERNED ABOUT YOUR OWN TEAM. understand? i dun think u do anw. 4f de ren. assholes. u think only u guys deserve all the very "pro" ppl and very good robot is it? then you're wrong. if u think your programming very pro and ur robot can run very fast then why u cannot win woodlands ring? so pro then go win them lah. i'm damn tired of all this shit already can. everytime there's a competition, the same thing always happens. EXAMPLE: you guys choose the robot u wan first and we get the last (almost lousiest) robot. EVERY SINGLE ******* TIME. I AM SICK OF IT. SERIOUSLY. WTH IS YOUR PROB LAH. CAN'T BELIEVE THE TEACHERS ACTUALLY MADE U PRES. like today. i heard u guys telling jack that the robot he using to train is YOURS. when it wasn't. cos that time u guys were already using the 2 other robots. meaning your own and jacks robot. while me and hz were using the one we used for F1 and the loco. then now u claim that it is yours. **** off lah. when i heard that i almost flare up can. damn frustrating to go through the same stupid cycle of fighting for robots every single time. just now i was damn damn angry. if u guys even noticed.

so i went out and stayed there until i cooled down. can't believe i'm actually using vulgarities again lah. so not worth it. but i just can't help it. cos for ppl like u. seems like u won't noe how others feel unless they use that kind of words to tell u. so here it is. yah. apparently amanda heard me cursing you guys too. shit.

yeah. thats how pissed i am with those 2 idiots. and i think that stupid noob kq won't even care even if he reads this cos he'll only listen to wad his 2 sidekicks say. aka gerald his "ace programmer" and LH. so wadever.

go die. donkeys. excrement. wadever...

tmr got cca interview. if they ask if i wanna be pres. i seriously dunno. i think that will be my answer. i dunno.

i wanna change the way this stupid cca works. like the way they grp ppl...the way they are so damn biased towards some ppl...i wanna change everything lah. like start afresh. but like i dun think they even wan me to be lah. so who cares. kq probably wans his lh lah. and i guess justin marc and others will follow him.

thats all. try to post tmr bah. see how.

oh and rachel got into finals for css. so cool. i wanna go on finals lah. but dun think can. sad.

2009-03-29T19:01:00.003+08:00

oh yah. fri saw jasper on the train. hahaha. damn funny. cos hz say she wanna find seat sit down then turn towards jasper side then we suddenly saw him. hahaha. at first i dunno who hz talking to. lol. then saw jasper. without his hair. but with a cap on. LOLOLOL. super funny. very coincidental or wadever lah. cos thats the first time he came out of ns. then we saw him. hahha. got pic on ahsrc blog. go see if u wan...oh. and got the vid from rgp competition. with the perfect run.

R1 competition: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aDF_jVfA5EE

The smooth run that shud have completed...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dp04miHh7Ns&feature=related

2009-03-29T18:05:00.002+08:00

woohooo!!! feel damn happy now. dunno why also. LOLOLOL.

just now had ss and jxs outing to... CHANGI AIRPORT!!! HAHAHAHA. okay. i'm retarded.
super fun. actually not so fun lah. but fun must be created yourself right? hahaha. yah. anw, i was the station OFFICIAL for the station NORTH POLE:):):) polar bears. hahaha. why official? i also dunno. the rest of the sec 3s were i/c s though. maybe its cos i'm special:):):) hahaha. crap. influenced by amanda. the poop. / the retard. anw...we hid at the garden @ changi. which is damn cool lah. nxt time then i post the pics. yah. played psp while waiting for the grps. all can't find us. hahaha. actually they found us by accident cos dunno which idiot stand up. then they saw. =.= yah. so we gave them the clue. and the ans is polar the high something cafe. which is like the ans leading back to us. cos north pole and polar... get the link? then they were like super confused. then they thought we at wrong place lah. but actaully. we followed the map. so is correct. then dunno which idiot teacher go scold us lah. go say that we at the wrong place then the clue doesnt make sense. then the organiser do the thing until very bad...tell us also useless right. lol. then other grps also like that. some is the clue lead to another station then the clue from another station lead back to them. them lead back and forth. damn funny. anw only 4 grps came to our station. then uncle richard say report back to the bus there le. cos no time. hahaha. ruth only got 2 grps. so pathetic. anw...this outing is a failure lah. then the parents and ss teachers also spoil it for the kids. teacher meaning the 30+ year old de lah. they base on their own knowledge then tell the children follow them then not fun already wad. onlywhen the kids do themselves then fun mah..haiz. nxt time they shld let us organise lah. we do better and more fun lor.

fri after the ceremony thing damn fun lah. cos me and huizhen decided to go cca even though we can't go AI. then we just go there and clean the room lor. damn freaking fun man. but very tiring. shld take pic of the before and after lah. really damn nice can. i spent like 1 hours plaus vacuuming the rgp track and carpet lah. walao eh. a lot of small little spots of dust lah. no wonder robot wheel always so dirty de. then hz pack the table....and sweep the floor. then we go tear down the noticeboard thing. and redo. make until super gay lah. i think cca ppl will get shock when they see lah. super colourful. butwe not done yet. hahaha. paste all the colour paper there only. planning to do on mon:)

sat had bala. and he talked super long. even after i told him i nid to leave. then he still go through the ans and write on the board. wlao. then mae me late lor. some more i meeting may. then in the end meet at 1.30. and she was late. lol. they made us wait 30 min before starting the performance lah. waste our time. and i only like the basketball thing. and the bees. hahaha. they clean damn funny lah. then play the stupid song some more. after that went home. wanted to go shopping with may for her bag but i though nid to go church so nvr go. in the end i stay at home until 6.30 then go pick my mum. then we go celebrate my grandma bday. at some restaurant at tanjong katong. the food okay lah. i like the chicken:) but like not full de...then after that went home lor....then bathe and slp le...

hhaahaha. dun blog le. i go play. but havent study bio and ting xie. so i'm screwed. as usual.

tues got cca interview...zzz. damn.

2009-03-26T21:16:00.002+08:00

RAWR!!! my stupid com is lagging!!! idiot. go die. dunno wad my sis go do today lah. i on it keep restarting. then now lag like siao. anw...TMR SCHL STARTS AT 8.45!!!! muahahaha. which means that i can slp for at least an additional 1 HOUR!!!! how nice:) ahhh...

making phone theme. hahaha. super fun lah. go try. ask me for the website. if u wanna try. yay. can use com late le:):):) but weekend a lot of hw.. bleh. sian. not sure if sat i still going bala. cos after that got to go back to schl watch the stupid sports thing. dumb

2009-03-24T16:52:00.002+08:00

200TH POST!!!! ARGHHH!!! finally. hahaha. lol. big deal.

went for schl today. wrong choice. shldnt have gone. damn boring. then i still damn tired. somemore the weather so cold today. wind blow like siao lor. i still got flu and cough then i over there shivering. haiz. was falling asleep in amath and sel lah. super boring man. actually, i think i was slping. hahaha. and i think mr khoo saw me..lol. but couldn't be bothered then. no choice mah. discriminant i learn in bala le. then bala go through like dunno how many times and ask us take down notes dunno how many times. the same notes. over and over again. then mr khoo also say take down notes. then i beside sheen like WTH. OMG. still take down? i wanna slp lah. hahaha. yah. so i just heck care him and chiong do all the sums he gave and finally slept. until lesson over. so shiok. then sel my eyes is really cannot take it le. so dun care her just slp. then i think she suaning me lah. miss noriff i mean. cos she said "i like people to look at me when i'm talking." then dunno why suddenly add "i don't mean the ppl in this class lah" .....i still heck care her go slp. hahahah.

and after schl everyone pangseh me lor. some kind of friends. haiya. so disappointed. so i walked to mrt with sheen. cos she also got pangsehed. hahaha. tmr got ting xie. but i noe that even if i remind myself i also won't learn de. so i shall make up my mind to not learn. for now. i shall start doing my eng phrasebook. or mrs hudd will kill me. and maybe watch i survived a japanese game show on youtube at the same time:) sheen go watch!!! :) damn funny

oh. heard rachel got into css finals:D:D:D:D so cool!!! i wanna go watch lah. but like no time:( or rather its cos too late le. haiz....so sad. nvm. i shall give her moral support. like always. LOL

madman craze...LOL

2009-03-23T16:10:00.004+08:00

look at the title. "madman craze" hahaha. in cityhall. literally.

sick today. hence, i didn't go schl. note! not pon. absent with valid reason:)

been slping like 4 hours everyday. wake up 5 slp 1-2 am. super tiring lah. u go try. see whether you'll fall sick.

the worst part is. we train so hard for competition. didn't even win. only 1 pathetic marit award. damn pro lor. cos some ppl go geikiang. use RC tire when it sucks. only 1 loco tyre robot. thus. all the rest lose. and our robot running that time suay lor. suddenly sky super dark. then rain. so can't sense properly. so nvr even complete track once. feel so disappointed and demoralised. then mrs tan still treat us delifrance, cos she say we train very hard. but like we dun even deserve it. then like damn guilty. BUT. i WILL work hard for september R1 competition. i MUST prove that AHS is bu le ki xiao kan de. just watch and see.

i hate that stupid old man lah. mr yong or wadever his name is. s biased towards woodlands ring can. faggot. they over there time already pass 5 min. overshot by like more than 10 sec leh. almost half a minute lah. then they still take their time over there slowly clean wheel. then he still let them runt he robot leh. WTF. damn pissed after seeing that. then other schl is pass 3 sec but robot on the track le. then he dun let them run. wth lah. where got judge like that de. then the TP ppl go tell him they overshot the time le he just say nvm. let them run. wth. just watch out. ni hui you bao ying de. asshole. reaally hate that old man. can't be bothered to post about the rest of the stuff. but during this h'day. like gonna die like that. everyday go back schl train. from morning to evening. then thurs i started feeling sick le. then during competition got sore throat and flu. now still have. damn sian. and cos of some ppl. go edit and screw our programme. we lost. i wonder who. u shld noe who u are. dun bother saying sry. i won't accept it. now like our schl damn diu lian can. so paiseh lah. i dun care. nxt time must go arrange the grp properly le. everytime same ppl tgt de. then they take all the good robot. so must let every gr have equal chance of winning. whether u like it or not. and i damn pissed with some ppl

cos they plug out the laptop charger.then there still got one plug. then they over there dotaing. dunno how to plug back. and its like gonna be our turn to run the robot le lah. thats not all. they go take our battery use for their robot competition. then stupidly go cage back tgt with the robot. then 2 runs before our run we preparing all the stuff. then can't find the battery. so we ask arnd. and u noe wad. they say they nvr take.t hen everyone say nvr take. so we go check their robot. and it is bloody ******* over there lah. wth. then they use. nvm. they didn;t bother taking it back to charge. then we tell them that they take. didn't even bother saying sry. just continue dota. wth. hate their attitude lah. think they damn rpo or wad robot running sit down there like ass. dun wanna catch. think their programme perfect. bunch of donkeys. and this is not the first time can. that time training also. go take then ask them give back say they ask us already then we say can. but they didnt even ask. then ask them return say after one last run. then after that still must charge batt right. then they use our batt without permission hai wo men bu neng train. assholes. then morning come so late. battery all they keep. then we no time charge before training. u think u so pro arr. fag. september see who win lah. ass.

hate this kind of ppl with this attitude. think the world revolve around them or wad. go die lah. the world will be a much better place without u guys. and now even the juniors also starting to get influenced by u. sucker. everytime in cca say our programme slow. but your programme leh. fast so wad? can complete track meh? u can't even complete segment 2 still tok so much crap. stupid biased ass. think u pres big deal arr. not happy too bad lor.

dun care le. waste my time. i go chiong hw le.

2009-03-18T23:47:00.002+08:00

oh yah...today cca quite fun. hahaha. weiling bought lunch for us. so nice. everyone bought fish and chips. except zhiling and xinyu. then supposed to buy 4 packet. but jane type wrong. so jack no food. ahhaha. then she realised after eating half of it. then she want to give th rest to jack. then he come out that time we laugh like siao so he noe got something wrong le. hahaha. jane so cute lah. in the end go alone to buy chicken rice for jack. haha. lol. then set up track at hall the stage. before that borrow badminton racket from some badminton ppl. took turns playing. lesson learnt: NVR EVER PLAY WITHOUT SHOES AND WITH YOUR SOCKS ON. super slippery lah. and i sprained my leg. how wonderful. but i guess its okay now. been eating lunch like 2 plus everyday. will die de lor. kay. its 12. slp le

2009-03-18T23:22:00.002+08:00

sry i know i havent posted for super long. hahaha. too busy le. no choice have to post at like 11 plus. lol. damn busy this week. even though its holiday...cca everyday. i really sacrifice a lot le lah. didnt go malaysia with my family today. then wont be going p6 class outing on sat. and wont be going cos prac on sat. wont be going church on sun. pathetic. super irritated with some ppl in cca. they think they damn pro or wad lah. as if they're like royalty or wad. bunch of losers. cant stand it le. everytime is we do all the saikung. then they over there do wad? guess lah. has something to do with the letters d-o-t-a. yeah. thats right. dota. assholes. i dun even care whether u read this and whether u hate me. cos this is really wad i feel. go die.

anw...we stopped at the bottom of the hill and talked/discussed for almost 45 min. about the arrangements for f1 masters. waste of time. cos of some stupid retards lah. in the end. plans cancelled. =.= damn dumb. somehow i feel that the guys in robotics suck. a lot. except for some. or rather, a handful only. the rest of you. go die also.

last last sun some youths from sanphranet came to chairs:):):) at first they dun really rmb us then ruth super sad cos rod not there. haha. then had lunch with them and not that awkward. but still fun. sad that didnt send them off though. guess we wont be meeting soon anw. i miss chiangmai 07 lah. went there for mission trip. even though like 1 week only...i missed them a lot lor. and now they're gone again...

last sun had SS (sunday schl) outing. to hello kitty's hse. (avery) hahaha. damn fun lah. we played rock band on wii for like the whole day. actually is went parkway eat first. ate at ajisen or something. walao. the noodles super hot lah. chongwei's even worse. shld have seen his face man. damn red. but its nice lah. then wanted to swim after dinner. where we had pizza:):):) damn nice. then ruth pushed marcus into the pool. with his iphone and hp and wallet still in his pocket. and he realised after 5 min. then too late le. hahaha. someone gave this idea of putting it in rice to absorb the water out. sounds stupid. i know. then ruth super sad. emo..haha. and aunty maggie came. the rest of us were pretending to be spies or something. then she was the monster. hahaha. damn funny. oh. and avery's hse. super BIG. although only 2 floors. got like everything lah. including the full rock band set for wii. 2 guitars the console de. not real. for xbox. table socces. pool. the room super big also. and a damn big fish tank. hahah. want to feed fish also must climb ladder. LOL. so cool lah.

mon went for css. rachel got in!!! hahaha. expected lah. that time she sing really not bad lor. voice very strong. saw ruth and naomi. hahaha. sitting in same row as me across the aisle. then me nini oli and becky realised we no money take cab back to newton. so called becky's dad come fetch. lucky. or else must walk home le.

fri staying at royal park hotel. hahha shld be fun. but dun think i'll be able to slp lah. as usual. but now really gonna slp le. tired..nights

2009-03-05T18:22:00.002+08:00

many things to post about...but i'll talk more when got more time. yeah

while waiting for the bus just now saw this little girl with her grandparents. her grandfather was carrying her and they looked so caring..kinda envied her. dunno why. but feel a bit sad then was emoing on the bus..maybe cos both my grandfathers died when i was young. 1 before i was even born and the other when i was still a baby. so i dun really rmb anything about them. and i only have 1 photo of 1 of my grandfather. if only he was still here...maybe life would be very different. i only remembered my mum telling me that i always played with my grandfather's specs. hahaha. when i saw the small girl, i guess i was kind of wondering if that could have been me. and what it was like when he was still there then. the thing about life is..you can nvr change wad has already happened. when its over, its over. so i guess he's really gone. and there's no way i can ever see him again. unless maybe i meet him in heaven. which is close to impossible. cos i dun think he accepted christ. but i just wanna say that i miss him. so much.

2009-03-03T21:22:00.002+08:00

just now talked to fedora the crazy woman. crazy wan lah. so disgusting also. yuckky. hahaha. she talk until she forgot that she wanted to go to slp lah. joker...

super pissed right now. just got scolded by my dad. idiotic lah. guess what he scolded me for? its cos i didn't noe where to put the bowl, and then he also didn't specify, so i just anyhow put lah. then kenna scolded. wtf. asshole sia. dunno wads his prob lah. like that also wanna scold. dunno he got nothing else better to do or wad lah. then later he still say "i'm not scolding you, its just that my voice loud only" WTH. i tell u arr. i over there like gonna bao fa like that can. i can feel all the anger coarsing through my body lah. feel like punching someone or something. then when i finally returned to my room, i can't take it le. then i go take one piece of paper and pencil and scribble all the shit and vulgarities that i almost said to him. lucky i control my temper lah. or else sure kenna slap de. but i'm really damn bloody sick of all these shit lah. can't he just freaking just give me a break? damn stressed lah. then he still scold. he think i purposely do that or wad lah.then i write until my hand super pain and i super tired..i can't take it anymore lah. just now i really ren until buay tahan lor. you have no idea right...realise i'm becoming more vulgar by the day..but i really can't help it. i'm trying to change. but everytime, when soemone or something irritates me, i'll just burst. like chinese lesson on mon. i hate wby lah. i write too short she dun accept then she still say "xiang zhe xie ren dou hen guai, zhun shi jiao gong ke gei wo." and she listed out the names. except mine. damn pro lah she. i got hand in but you just bloody dun wanna accept it wad can i do right. feel damn stressed now. like so many stuff to take care of. and feeling so damn tired everyday. i hate this life lah.

anw. tmr is sed. hope we can make lots of money. hahaha. the cookies are nice lah. dunno why but just now when got back amath test i super happy. even though i failed. hahaha. think i'm going crazy lah. or maybe its just that my expectations are lowering le.

2009-03-01T18:20:00.002+08:00

...after threatening to rain for the whole aftrnoon...it finally rained. but dun like this kind of rain. like so fierce like that. so scary lah. at home with my dad now. cos my mum and sis went malaysia shop. hahaha. i dun wanna go cos like got alot of hw. but in the end wasted the whole afternoon. at least i no nid wait so bloody long for them to finish their facial thing...church was kinda fun today. though sermon was damn boring...and naomi so fierce lor. go confiscate our paper then we cannot pass notes. sad. ss ended super early today:):):) hahaha. thanks to chongwei. ruth's beloved. but sadly, nxt wk he not teaching us le:(

yesterday tuition ended super late lah. 1 hour late leh. stupid bala. then like so draggy...then i go home my mum went church for choir le. then when she come back we go whitesands eat:) had korean food. its nice lor. spicy chicken:):):)

tmr got cca...hahaha. can't say out plans now...but shld be fun:)

2009-02-27T19:06:00.002+08:00

just came back from cca like half and hour ago...alone..cos some ppl go pangseh me. dumb.
they super boliao can. go running to train for napfa...siao. not like me lor. i so good no nid to train de. hahaha.. no lah. is lazy. and tired.

feel so crappy lately. sry if i've flared up at you or something. dun take it to heart. esp today during cca. dunno why feel super irritated. maybe cos things are just not going my way...ss test just pilled my geog test marks down. a lot. from like 90 percent become 70 plus. damn pissed with the teacher also. cos she didn't say cannot quote from background info. seriously, she can't teach for nuts lah. like many teachers in our schl. but at least she's nice lah. she's a nice form teacher but not a good teacher. hahaha. doesnt make sense. maybe thats one of the reasons lah. cos lately like can't find my purpose to study so hard again. i just dun see the point of putting so much effort into it. at the end of the day, you just get your marks written on a piece of paper, but do u actually learn anything, or even rmb it? i dun think i will.

todays eng writing assignment was....okay i guess. but not enough time for me to write properly. so very messy...hahaha. and the debate's nxt wk. which my grp still hasnt prepared for....die le lor.

cca normal. but super pissed cos the battery like sai like that, then run 3 round no batt. then must charge for like 20 min. then run 3 round again then no batt again. WHEN CAN WE FREAKING COLLECT THE BATT FROM AI LAH. LIKE THAT HOW TO TRAIN FOR COMPETITION???? walao. i think AI purposely de lor. dun wan us to win. idiot. then the stupid robot also keep getting stuck at segment 35 and 36 there. only passed it ONCE. then out at 38...zzz. hz came late. as usual. cos she had something "VERY VERY VERY IMPORTANT ON" whcich proved to be false. and u noe wad? is actually bball match. idiot sia. nvr tell me. i also wanna watch de lor. amazingly, vivian and elaine came today. hahaa. had to persuade vivian to go into the room. cos she like feel very awkward. but ok lah. elaine still not so bad as i thought.

got super a lot of hw this weekend..which i'm sure i can't finish. but who cares...my results are dropping like siao lah. esp sciences.

kay lah. i go bathe and eat le. hahah. bye

2009-02-26T21:01:00.002+08:00

oh yah. which reminds me...

the wushu teacher finally praised our class. for the FIRST time. hahaha. how amazing. i think we damn pro lor. super nice can. but got potential to do better.

and heard that F1 masters rgp thing is from 20-22 march leh. fri to sun. of the last wk of march hday. how nice lah. not. cos i won't be able to study for my bio test which is on the first day of term 2. and i can't study it beforehand cos i know that i sure forget de...and most likely it'll end late on sunday which means i most probably won't be able to wake up the nxt day. ARGHHHH. feel so stressed sometimes. must really manage my time well le. can't procrastinate. like wad i'm doing now. kay lah. i go chiong bio ws le lah. toodles:)

2009-02-26T20:29:00.002+08:00

walao. damn sian leh today. super long lah. feel so damn tired now. lucky no badminton. or else even worse..but got hw leh. must research for the speech assignment tmr. although its optional..and must do the stupid bio additional exercise lah. sian. a lot lor. dun even noe why must do can. shld be for our revision mah. then nxt time we no more ws do le leh. anw that time mrs lee also got say that its optional mah. then i nvr do she go minus 5 marks from my CA1 total. as if my marks not low enough meh. think she funny or wad lah. irritating man.

so many tests lately. i dun even rmb all the tests lah. today got back bio and geog test. finally. haha. ownage man. guess how much i got??? hahaha. 24/25. unexpected. the 1st test that i finally did well in. or rather, above my own expectations. besides emath.

the problem with 3c is...their definition of the word "low", when used with the word "marks", forming "low marks" is like a percentage of 70 plus. which in other ppl's case, is considered very high. that was my "high" last year. then when they get below 80, they not happy then start emoing. thats the thing i hate about my class. cos after a while, it gets really irritating. seriously. maybe they got high expectations of themselves or wad lah. i also dunno. but got others lower than them so they shld be satisfied already mah...wth. everytime like that de lor. idiot leh. and the worst thing is..after a while you find yourself comparing your results to them. and even thoguh your marks quite good, you'll be disappointed.

anw, yesterday last lesson for nxt. got some award thing. which amazingly was awarded to jane and andrew. hahaha. everyone laughing like siao lah. but they not bad lah. programming still quite good. esp jane. then jasper showed us photos of ahsrc in the past. when all the guys were in shorts. super funny lah. esp KIAQIAN. AHAHAHAHA. spastic

then some of them wanted to go airport for dinner, but i broke already cos this month buy so many presents for ppl. so planned to go pasir ris with amanda. then hz wait for the rest at tanah merah. then they go try pangseh her then purposely go on the other platform. lol. then in the end she dun wan go le. then go with us. then the train door closing i saw sk and the rest then they looking for her. hahaa..huo gai.but in the end weiling called her thenshe say she dunwan go. nt fun de...haha. last time used to play like that also. when we were in sec 1. super fun lah. then pangseh nicholson and vivian...kinda missed those days. but ahsrc now quite bonded already lah. and surprisingly, i'm enjoying the cca sessions more and more:)

tmr cca again. hopefully will get to train rgp. nvr train so long le. cos everytime at segment 35 to 36 out. then change so many time also cannot. very sian. but i'll do my best and make ahsrc proud:) cannot let other ppl look down on us.

dunno wads our schl prob lah. keep checking our attire for wad. they every morning like that then ppl mei you xin qing xue xi le...then now even pe shorts also want to control. say cannot be so colourful...everyone must be the same. but i think not very fair to sports players lah. at least shld let them wear their own shorts mah...ridiculous lah.

tmr getting back ss test. hope i get at least 6/10. amanda got 8 lah. the stupid retard. lol.

march gonna be broke again. more ppl bday. esp cca ppl...haiyo..no nid eat le lor.

2009-02-24T17:04:00.002+08:00

ahhh. i love rainy days. been so so long since i took the bus in the rain. dunno why but got this very peaceful feeling. hao xiang zhen de yao dao jia le..haha...

didn't go cca outing... but dun really feel like watching movie lately leh. usually i 1 mth watch at least twice de. like last yr in 2g. when it was so bloody easy to organise movie outings. can impormptu decide to watch also. but now...everyone's so busy. cca also all diff days...miss last year. i dun think 3c can ever be like that lah. pathetic. all the ppl care about is mugging...esp them. can't stand it anymore. maybe i made the wrong choice. shld i have gone with my friends or my dream? i don't know anything anymore...pathetic. hate it when i feel like that...unsure of everything. all i know is i can find comfort in my cca. hah. just 2 yrs ago i was dreading every single session. but now...i find myself looking forward to any day with rgp training. i wonder why. maybe when you're close to losing something then you will start to cherish it a bit more....i guess i'll miss the sec 4s when they leave. the cca will nvr be the same again. some more the sec 1s so quiet de...

enough.

amath was ....like crap. everyone was stuck at the 1st qn. haha. i think for damn long lah. 15 min. then kanchiong liao. then i skip first. then chiong the rest then go back to the qn. but i think my ans is wrong anw. super hard lah. after calculating...i think the max mark i can get is 51. hahaha. stupid right. quite pissed with myself also.

class was okay i guess. just either stoning or drawing or just enjoying the rain and wind....i learnt how to write my name in jap!!! hahaha. thanks to sheen:) quite nice:) haha. cos i wrote it...LOL.

tmr ting xie leh. a lot to rmb lor. but lazy lah...later then study.

after schl walked to mrt with becky, nini, oli and corny. been so long since we walked bck tgt le. but they went off at tampines to watch movie. poor me....

i'm gonna fail my ca1 le lah. confirm like shit de. everything was below my expectations. i won't say that i'll work harder...cos i know i won't. haha.

oh yah..yesterday super pissed lah. our schl lost to dunman sec leh. stupid bball match lah. gap of 3 points. then left 3 sec. then coach call for time out. then start that time they passed a few times then shoot from super far cos no time le. everyone was like holding their breaths when the ball was sailing through the air lah. then "bong". hit the rim. bounce. out. and we lost. our schl supporters were like groaning when the thing missed lah. really wasted lah. but the referee a bit biased also lah. then khanliang and sherwin looked super pissed. but our players didn't perform to their best standard. thats wad i felt. they missed too many shots... and once aggain,,i'm in love with bball...just cos i watched 1 match...haiz

2009-02-22T15:27:00.003+08:00

COSUNDAY ROCKS MAN:D so fun can:) shld see the pics lah. we decorate the room until super cool lah. credits to yours truly. hahaha.

feels like so long since i last posted. hand very itchy now. haha.

fri
went 18 chefs to eat dinner with cca ppl after cca. xinyu, weiling, jane, mush, gerald, sk, yiyang, kiaqian, marc. but wait super long lor. too many ppl. so the guys eat first. then the gals go walk around. PET SHOP:D the puppies all damn cute leh. nxt time i'm gonna buy a terrier:D:D:D:D SO CUTEEEE....ahhhhh...haha. quite cheap leh. the food i mean. one plate of pasta plus drink plus ice cream 6.40. haha. anw. after that went home. watched survivor. sooo nice lah. haha. the stupid woman got blindsided:):):) love it when they do that. so fun

sat
went bala. was late. cos i couldnt wake up..lol. then after that chiong home, eat, then chiong go church for cos prac. super late lah. reached about 3.30. sian. so i help with the board. SO COOL:) love it lah. then after that slack...then after my mum's choir went for dinner at whitesand. haha. bought pres for che poh. so cute lah. is like gumball machine. but also can use as piggy bank. WE GOT OUR NEW COS SHIRT!!! GREEN:) so nice!!!! feel damn hyper now lah. dunno why. then eat and went home...

sun
CHURCH. COSUNDAY:D:D:D so fun!!! a lot of children leaders now lor. my grp not bad lah. but got someone super irritating. we got highest can. for the around the world quiz. but tie with another grp. so scissors paper stone see who win and get the prize lor. sad. we lost...haiz. but like that veryunfair to the kids lah. anw. we make the social hall look like airport. hahaha. if u want go facebook see the pics. maybe nxt time then i post here...

I LOVE RAINY SUNDAYS. hahaha. dunno why also. got this emo feel to it. but at the same time very shiok. LOL

2009-02-18T20:58:00.002+08:00

shld go see 3c's blog. super duper funnylah. esp the rules and regulations part. lol. class jokes. but if anyone wants to know...

www.ahs3c09.blogspot.com

cca today. quite fun. program nxt. programming quite easy lah. but some retard go sell ice cream then i must call her come up. stupid.

dunno why emath that time got the miss wong come video mr wee teaching. guailan. then the test was...do in grps of 4. then someone suggested each person do 3 qn. even though there only got 6. then check ans. in the end not enough time. wth. and that same person super weird can. after flag raising also go listen mp3...siao. haha. miss noriff damn nice lor. give us chocolate:) ferrero roche:) let us eat in class to:):):) hahaha. my class the SCs corrupted de. they see us eat also dun care. they also go eat. except zhiyuan...lalala.

after cca those crazy peeps go bedok there run...train for napfa. stupid lah. so hot how to run. in the train i melting can. some more the stupid air con spoil lah. super hot. anw damn tired. so nvr go with them..

stupid lah. the robo racer dunno why got so many random errors lah. the batt fully charged some more leh. so can't be no batt. unless batt spoil. then we gg le. no more batt to train..:(

sad lor. tmr can't go cca train le. got tuition. cos of some spastic ass. then tmr will be super tired le leh. schl end so late. then got tuition. then got badminton. no time do hw le lah. HOW. all your fault.

2009-02-17T21:22:00.002+08:00

wahh..damn sian leh. that time sunday go escape theme park sit the roller coaster so many time then the thing keep jerking. and i keep whacking my back against the seat. now super pain lah. 3 days le leh. siao liao.

sunday
went escape theme park from 1-6. actually there quite little rides lah. or maybe cos got 3 rides closed for maintenance. and is those super fun de lor. like pirate ship (viking), inverter and 1 more. lol. first went for go-kart. damn fun lah. but we queue super long lah. 20 min plus leh. then the stupid idiotic guy go shortchange us lah. other ppl all 3 laps then we only got 2 laps. wtf. asshole. then went roller coaster, bumber boat, the lie down thing, flipper, aeroplane thing, roller coaster, wet and wild. i think thats all. lol. then everytime when we almost dry then get wet again. cos after the wet and wild super wet. so we rest. then dry almost fnish le then we go spray ppl at the bumper boat there. the outside de. then get sprayed also lah. then gonna dry already then go play bumber boat. walao. that one is super wet de can. me my sis and her friend gang up against other ppl. lol. damn funny lah. but they got wear raincoat de =.= then in the end i kenna shot by them. in the head...bleh. super wet lah. then play finish le go home lor

mon
normal stuff. after schl i chiong go find mrs tan but she still not there. then sheen call me say she at canteen. lol thanks again arr:) so i chiong down find her. lucky lor. cos she just nice going up. or else i dunno where she go le. then chiong eat although also can't eat cos too nervous. i nvr study lah wth. cos i dun even noe the make up test that day. then that time study de all forget. sure fail de. i dun even noe nm is wad can. die le lor. anw won't be so disappointed. cos is i purposely plan to fail:) hahaha. spastic. then after that chiong go cca. then half way through test dunno which stupid mush hor. call me hor. then i also dunno wd she talking cos she talk halfway laugh laugh laugh. crazy wan lah. lucky teacher not there or else i die le. oh yah. then chiong cca. in the end...super disappointed can.

dunno which dummy lah. go say got sumobot competition. then i chiong there train. in the end dun have competition at all. damn sad can. cos jack say is this wk. then i was looking forward to ponning class de lor. sian leh. idiot lah. how can like that cancel de. then i think this year i can't win anymore medals for cca le. even though jack say rgp can win...sure cannot de. u noe how many schl there or not..haiz.

anw. got vday pres. belated de. stupid mush again lah. u noe my class just beside hers. then she purposely bring down the present during flag raising then get her friend throw to me leh. super obvious some more can. damn ps lah. haiya. 7 sub de ren...lol. jk jk.

but thanks to becky, mushmush, may and class ppl...hahaha. lol

today
got cca but nvr go. crazy lah. expect me everyday go meh. i not so boliao de lor. but sec 2 dunno go for wad. hz tell me de. anw my grp also no one going. expect me to train alone meh. guailan.

tmr cca again. official de. sad lah. i dun like nxt. very boring. rgp more fun!!! sian. at least my grp not bad lah...hahaha.

but got wushu. sucks lah. hate the teacher. both also assholes. go die lah

and cos of someone arr. whose name starts with A. and has 6 letters...and who is a stupid retarded and spastic POOP. go change paper day to thurs cos someone tues got compulsory cca... then thurs i must rush le leh. got badminton you noe. then in the end today also dun have your cca right. haiz...zhe zhong ren ye you. ling wo tai shi wang le

2009-02-15T11:26:00.002+08:00

...i'm screwed man. just rmb tmr got bio test. chap 3. and i havent even studied can. must do well for this one cos the last one got lower than expected. cos i missed out one whole section. stupid me. so now i'm studying and blogging. lol. actually quite easy lah. just have to know wad happen to RBC when got water. noe how to draw. then noe how to explain...actually quite a lot lah. aiyah. dunno lah. dun care.

didn't go church. cos my mum sick. then no one bring me go church. then my dad took the car go another church. for his TTC thing lah. sometimes really gets in the way of everything lah. but thats wad he wants to do...so no choice lor.

later going escape theme park with my sis and her church friend. for her bday. cos got free tickets. lol. so i doubt will have time to study. who cares about bio anw. bio sucks. actually mrs lee quite nice lah. but dunno why i just dun like her. shes too organised already lah. u noe she go help us file our notes in the file then give us lah. then ws also file then give us. wth. buay tahan. but no choice lah. got to act guai. cos i bio rep. damn.

yesterday bala was kinda nice actually. getting used to it le. learned about matrix, synthetic method, long division, blah blah blah.. saw a girl who looked like she was from my p6 class. jane i think. no wonder look so familiar. i think she recognise me also. cos i come in then she smile at me. dunno lah.

my left hand still hurts man. after 3 weeks. cos that time jane go whack. then another cca day i go whack the bone there against the com edge. then another cca day i go whack against the table. can see the bruise lah. super pain. and my knee still hasnt healed. still got the bruise also. but less pain. stupid lah that time wushu then must kneel on right knee some more. i was like slowly kneel then the moment it touched the floor wah super pain can.

good news is...i've recovered!! muahahaha. LOL. okay. this is retarded. actually yesterday night recovered already lah. even though i secretly ate chips after bala. haha. thats all i guess...hmm

happy belated valentines day:):):) lol. may owes me a present:)
i'm kinda glad i dun have anyone to spend vday with yet. cos u see xian zai de nian qing ren...so fast got bf/gf le. then obviously these kind of relationships won't last long de right. sometimes is they just see that person very attrative nia. then they like (not love) that person, so go stead le. haiyo..seriously. thinking back through the 14 years of my life...dun have 1 person whom i truly like yet. seriously. haha. dunno whether good or bad. lol

haha. anw, my new motto is....
DUNNO DUN CARE:)

2009-02-13T15:57:00.002+08:00

super sian now. didn't go schl today cos morning got fever. now okay already lah. but got sore throat and bit of headache.

so i'll be missing cip and the physics test. damn crap lah. then nxt time nid to go for the make up test. sian. lucky i bring home all my bio and geog stuff yesterday. or else mon and tues test sure die de.

i'm super bored now lah. just went loyang point there see doctor. i hate medicine. esp tablets. i have sort of a phobia for swallowing tablets. dunno why. i scared i choke or the thing stuck there.
but got lozenges so that one still okay lah.

nothing else le i guess. later got survivor!!! i wanna watch!!! but tmr got bala...sian

2009-02-12T21:44:00.002+08:00

feel damn tired now lah. cca until 6. then come home bathe 7 le. i got sore throat and flu lah. plus a bit of fever. everytime got sore throat and flu confirm will have fever de lor. 37.3. quite low lah. i guess. tmr got physics test but lazy study le. anw even if study i sure can't rmb lor. my head like spinning lah.

just now the stupid internet can't work. wasted my time lah. hope i still can go schl tmr...got cip. but it'll be good to rest lah. i think cos i nvr slp properly. as in not enough slp. thats why feel damn tired then sick. not the first time anw. also maybe cos of yesterday rain. then i still go aircon. then walk around at tm buy pres for mush. so maybe thats why lah. after this slp le. screw physics.

just now cca damn sad lah. i train rgp alone. cos hz go celebrate her bday then after that she got tuition. then zhilin doing mm. then jiaqing nvr come. even if he come he also won't know how to do de lah. the very good news is...our last green batt spoiled. how wonderful. and the stupid AI says the 7 green batt we sent to them for repair is beyond repair. WTF. they think they funny lah. where got such thing de. i mean if 1 or 2 or even 3 can't repair still ok lah. ALL CANNOT REPAIR LEH. WTF. go die lah. dunno wads their prob lah. fix motherboard also nvr fix properly. i tell you arr. if i ever go there i confirm scold them like shit de lor. take our money then nvr repair properly some more. asshole. watch out.

back to the topic. damn sian lah. cos tmr cip then no time train rgp. then if dun train will die lor. cos now must use another program cos the old one can't work for white batt. so i cheng zhu even though sick. seriously lah. actually wanted to just go home de lor. but if i dun train then stupid mush also won't de lor. then zhilin must do mm no time train. now i'm super duper tired. and sick. actually i dun mind if i miss cip lah. i know le. if tmr i feel sick. even if just a bit i dun go schl. cos i'll just feel worse at the end of the day. which is wad happened today...

ohyah. the stupid weiling lor. tell her reach schl hurry meet in my class then we can pass hz the pres tgt. then they take so long. in the end they met hz while going up so they give without me=.= then ask them come and do card also nvr. now its done halfway. zzz...

lazy post about other stuff le. but today didnt go badminton. cos my mum also not feeling well. good lor. or else i have to suffer more...

oh. and in 3c today right. may or dunno who go put the ss ws for the row on the prc table. then the prc damn dumb can. she go take the whole stack and bring back put in hostel. then after that we were thinking how come we dun have. then she say she tmr then give us. but i think its due tmr. wth. stupid or retarded lah. no brain leh.

changed seat yesterday. actually sitting with a china guy de. then i think some ppl go complain to miss noriff about the seating arrangement then she put me with sheen. miss noriff also quite dumb lah. cos is she random put us de. then its like we also dunno how to communicate with the prc scholars right. i mean..see arr. their chinese is those china de. talk damn fast de. then ours is like singaporean chinese which got mixture of dialects de. then their eng islike us that kind. the accent is very weird. but ours is singlish. then got mix of everything also. then will be super hard to talk to them lah. then we have to help them in their studies cos like some ppl really suck. but then who will help us? no one....zzz.

kay lah. slp le. tmr then complain some more. lol. night.

Dear god, i pray that i will be able to recover from my fever, sore throat and flu by tmr morning so that i'll be able to go for schl, cip and hopefully have time for cca too. help me to be strong and to be able to serve you with all my heart and soul. i pray that you'll help all of 3c in tmr's physics test, keep our minds clear and give us wisdom. lastly, i pray that you'll keep everyone safe while we sleep tonight. in Jesus's name, Amen.

2009-02-11T22:24:00.002+08:00

omg. i feel sick lah. got flu and a bit of sore throat. dunno why leh. just now cca that time maybe the com lab too cold. then still get caught in the rain a bit. sian. how leh. can't be sick tmr. important stuff. lol. no lah. got surprise. unvealed tmr. but also got cca leh. so maybe if i sick then dun go lor.

stupid mush weiling lah. still must pei her go amk. collect money or dunno wad lah. siao wan lor. but i so caring for my junior. of course will go lor. you owe me man:)

super tired somemore lah. just now go tm buy some stuff for tmr. then go home that time the mrt and bus super crowded lah. then still must go buy food for my sis. wah..sian leh. then i bathe then eat finish almost 9 le lor. then very tired so nvr do si han. die le. tmr chinese lesson must chiong finish. or else the stupid woman kaopei me again...tmr come back see whether got time post again. still got last wk stuff havent write. very important...

2009-02-09T22:02:00.002+08:00

wah. damn sian leh. long time nvr post. actually not very long lah. but not proper post...

just now got rgp training. damn sian can. battery charge very slow also. at least my programming quite good:) managed to go quite far. but after that cannot le. sad..played o2 mania. cos damn bored. then the guys dotaing..

now super tired man. just now watched css. a lot of sec 4 go. dunno why. maybe cos sec 3s wanna study for CT tmr. score very surprising today. expected rachel to be better. lazy stay up to watch results lah. tmr then ask around.

tmr ss CT leh. HOW???? havent study. not planning to anw. dun even noe study wad shit lah. stupid leh.

chionging geog thing now. stupid presentation crap lah. laimay lor. do so little. then now i can't find anything. my eyes like half closed also.

hope that the sec 1 guy will get better soon. really sad. though i'm not very close to him...

tmr got bala. so very likely wont post. then rest of the week also quite busy. maybe thurs i chiong home slp a while then update blog lor.

stupid weiling. pangseh me today. dumb mush.

2009-02-07T13:06:00.002+08:00

crap crap crap. no time update le. gtg for tuition. sian leh. dun feel like going today. haiz. leaving in 5 min. or else must wait super long for bus.

random post a bit first lah. yesterday got cca. then they say mon also have. wth. dun feel like going leh. how...

see first lah. gtg le:(

2009-02-03T17:33:00.002+08:00

super sian lah. busy lor. but today not much hw. only emath. later then chiong lah. now the wind super cold lor. freezing lah. like china like that. rained the first time in the year today. usually jan will rain le. dunno why only now then rain...weather super weird now lah. chinese test still okay lah. very short leh. cos no compre open ended. bio was ---- stupid. the qns keep repeating de lor. then i left out one whole part cos i tot no nid do. then cher say hand in then i see other ppl all got do so i random write some letters and numbers. wth. die liao lor. tmr cca. hz confirm pon de lor. slacker. but shld pon while we can lah. or else hand over le then must go everytime le. but if pon then some assholes will say we slack and attitude not serious. sian...anw i also can't pon de lor. my dad will kill me if he find out.

walao. just now fall down lah. trip on dunno wad thing. then now my right knee got bruise le lor. super obvious can. then my skin tear. got the red red thing. very pain lah. ouchhh. tmr pe. shld be measuring height and weight. yay!!! can see how much i grow. i aiming to be at least 172. very cool lor. but i think still got wushu leh. how??? so sian.

2009-02-01T18:49:00.002+08:00

OH YAH. i going for tuition le. for the 2nd time in 14 yrs of my life. a math de. damn chim lah. i dun even noe wad the cher talking about can. then that stupid cher. nvr go through properly de lor. only go through a few qn nia then move on to nxt topic le. no ws. NOTHING. will die de leh. so i'm going with amanda to bala this sat. hopefully can improve my marks

2009-02-01T18:23:00.002+08:00

morning awaken by someone calling me. stupid mush. at 10.45. super tired lah. cos i nid to meet hz to pass her something. then go whitesand. hz super dumb lor. or maybe she blind de. she actually took the same bus as me without knowing lah. cos i middle. then she right in front. then all the way to the mrt there i walk behind her she also dunno. dumb.

then go home. do a bit of hw. then use com super long. then study for test. then 6 plus chiong out.

then went aunty doris's hse for buffet dinner. cos my mum had choir there. then went whitesands for swenson's ice cream:) again. lol. third time in a row. last 2 sat also go. but still not fat leh. lol. grew even lighter. dunno why. i'm weird. lime sherbet plus mango:):):) super nice lor. plus fries:) then went home....

today late for church. went jxs. for fun. then slack a while then went ss. amazingly it was less boring..then wait for my mum to finish meeting. then wait for my dad to come. then we go katong eat lunch. the chicken rice super nice lor. i eat a lot. but stil hungry.

i hate bio lah. damn chim lor. i only reading through for tmr test. dun care le. fail also dun care.

ting xie also tmr. that one i walking to schl then study lah. super sian...

btw. i wanna get a laptop and psp. but my mum dun let. sian. laptop she say must get below 1000 dollar. WTH. so pro she go find lah. cheapo. then the psp she since last yr july already promise me lor. is cos my results good. then combine with bday. until now still dun have. sian lah. i wan red de. so cool. if got green good lor...

2009-01-30T21:08:00.001+08:00

our convo...

chris says:
mushyyyy!!!!!!!!!

weiling says:
mushyyyyy sister!!!!!

chris says:
LOL

chris says:
wad u doing

weiling says:
blogging

weiling says:
lol

weiling says:
go tag!

chris says:
i tot you make private blog???

weiling says:
opne liaos

chris says:
lol

chris says:
stupid retard

weiling says:
go tag larhs

weiling says:
i posting bout today

weiling says:
lol

chris says:
lol

chris says:
boliao

weiling says:
ok dont post liao

chris says:
????

chris says:
ok ok

chris says:
go post

weiling says:
LOL

weiling says:
later then post

weiling says:
ahaha

chris says:
....

chris says:
ur blog so dead

weiling says:
i go psot pls

weiling says:
what dead

weiling says:
wa u broke my heart

weiling says:
later i go lock back

weiling says:
lol

weiling says:
you see larjhs i got post derh

chris says:
oh so sry

chris says:
break your small little fragile heart

chris says:
lol

weiling says:
yeha lorh

weiling says:
but seriously the blogskin look okay anot ?

chris says:
wait lah

weiling says:
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weiling says:
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chris says:
lol

chris says:
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chris says:
think i stupid de meh

weiling says:
lol

chris says:
lol wad lah

chris says:
blogskin looks familiar

chris says:
not bad lah

weiling says:
WHERE GOT FAMILIAR!

weiling says:
wa sian

weiling says:
everytime i change skin always other ppl use before

weiling says:
i find so long lorhs!

chris says:
lol

chris says:
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chris says:
not familiar AT ALL

chris says:
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weiling says:
happy

weiling says:
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chris says:
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chris says:
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weiling says:
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weiling says:
tag kays!!!

chris says:
TAGGED

chris says:
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weiling says:
kabishh

weiling says:
shan yi derh huang yan

chris says:
lol

chris says:
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chris says:
haiz

lol. wo shuo le yi ge shan yi de huang yan:)

2009-01-30T20:48:00.002+08:00

cca today. had fun. not. stupid MUSH huizhen lah. pangseh me. pon cca. cos she sick. sure. super sian lor. stupid jack lah. go say i must help him teach sec 1 rgp. then lee hao zao to AI. leave me alone. but at least i teach not bad lah. we today only run once. and can go until segment 12 le:) not like nub jack. run so many time still so slow. then we program until 17. but no time run. jane super random. dunno why she started telling weiling about the ring. then dunno why i also started listening to her talk for 2 hour plus. then after break i decided to let the sec 1s program themselves and help weiling they all make the vex robot. stupid jack. lol. damn dumb lor. i first time build leh. mostly i do de. the more complicated part lah. he say not bad. muahahaha. duh. cos i do de mah:) nvr wear cca tee. but nvr fine. cos they say got bring then nvm. haha. stupid mush weiling. oh yah. now, we have a mushroom family!!!
mush dad- jack (lol. sucker)
mush mum- huizhen (muahaha. hi mummy)
mush sister- weiling (retard mush)
and me:):):)

so nice:) oh yah. he apologised to me. even though i accept it, doesnt mean i forgive you. cos i know that you'll repeat the same stupid mistake again. and again. and again. he said: sry for being so negative...like i even care.

supposed to pass hz her 51 dollars and some other stuff at whitesands. but my dad fetch me so tmr then pass.

got back chem results the other day. not bad. for a person who last minute study. 30.5/35. highest kun mei. 34. lowest some prc scholar. 18 i thnk. or maybe thats not lowest lah. i seriously can't stand some ppl lah. eg: the guy sitting nxt to me. wth. he get 30 he still not happy leh. then over there emoing. then got 1 qn is ask wad is the colour of the mixture of blue and yellow orange methyl solution ma. he put orange =.=. then he go kaopei the teacher. say the qn is not related to the syllabus. then say that they cannot set that kind of qn. WTF. then mr goh say: but its these qns which can help us to differentiate the A1s and the A2s. LOL. then he still not happy. wlao. got ppl get lower than him also happier lah. his considered very high le lor. attitude still like shit. anw the qn very simple wad. he get wrong his prob lah. he stupid wad can we do right. his own fault ma. no common sense at all. no brain leh.

then my class arr. every minute study wan leh. walao. sometimes during recess i see from outside why everyone like sitting down study then like so quiet. i tot teacher come le leh. then in the end no teacher. walao. scary lah.

ha. stupid retard weiling.

2009-01-28T16:16:00.002+08:00

ohhh. and tues went to mrs tan hse. stupid mush hz lah. i go give her wake up sms then she also dun care. then after that she call me or something. then i tell her she late. lol. then she chiong out. i very good lor. wait for her. then she say she coming. so i go to the interchange there first. then reaching then she tell me she dunno how to go the bus interchange =.= so i hao xin go walk back fetch her there. then she tell me she noe how to go but dunno where is the bus. wtf. feel like killing her lah. make me walk so much. leg super pain cos the shoe cut into my skin. then super hot also. so we go there stay awhile then eat a bit of pasta then go back le. mrs tan dog super hyper de lor. but quite guai lah. didn't bark.

2009-01-28T15:45:00.002+08:00

see lah. cos of those ppl, make me so angry. then forgot to post about the other stuff also. so here goes..

fri after cca and the 2 assholes. my dad came to fetch me. so unfortunately, hz had to go home alone. with xinyu until simei. lol. then went whitesands to eat dinner. then went swenson's eat ice cream again. orange and lime sherbet is nice lor. sort of like deja vu. cos last wk also went kopitiam first then swenson. except this time my dad was there with us and i didn't see hz's mushroom head:) lol. then went giant. dunno for wad. oh. i bought my surfers paradise slipper le. after dunno how many months. but no white and black TT so i buy white and blue. not bad lah. super crowded can. then after getting out of the stupid place we went home.

sat normal stuff. sunday also. but no sunday schl!!! muahahaha

mon and tues went visiting. earn about 5 dollars playing blackjack. actually can earn more de lor. but my mum say must play small. so about 20 cent nia for each round. lol. at my grandma hse i get the ace dunno how many time lah. like 5/6 times. super lucky can. and everytime is ace of spades de. then at home play i got the 2 ace. then my dad must pay me triple. lol. if i put like 10 dollar can earn 30 dollar le leh. haiz. super wasted. but still..got earn lah.

today schl cny celebration. must wear red. for my class. cos miss noriff says so...=.=damn sian lor. i wanna wear green de. make lantern. express chinese the 8 ppl combine do. cos we not enuf materials. then like not enough time also. so teacher say can. hahaha. then in the end make one cow that looks like a pig. super cute lor. ( ugly but adorable) but like not enough time leh. 1 hour nia. then sit down watch the stupid concert for almost 2 hours. leg super pain after that. and its damn boring lah. i think only the wushu thing nice lor.

tmr thurs le. so fast. must hand in hw TT then fri cca TT and those assholes will die. its payback time:)

2009-01-26T10:41:00.002+08:00

WOW. super long post man...that felt good. getting all that stuff out. but i still feel like very wei qu. cos if i dun say it to their face they still won't understand. haiz. nvm. won't be bothered with stupid ppl. low class. but p.s.:

WATCH YOUR OWN BACK

2009-01-26T09:24:00.002+08:00

feels like super long since i posted. and many things happened. stupid and idiotic stuff which just makes me pissed. start on fri shall we...

friday

had class. boring as usual. and we received these donation cards for the school ISH building fund. heard that we owe a lot of money. not wad is stated on the letter. then i had to collect the stupid ICT projects and ws cos the stupid teacher didn't come up to collect. and she didn't even tell me to do anything can. so far the first and only thing she asked me to do was to give out ws. wth. at least u wan tell me collect just say lah. i'll do it willingly. but you nvr even tell me anything. wad u expect me to do. think i can read ur mind meh?? dumb. then after class had cca. games day.

the games were fun lah. really fun. one is like 3 legged race. but this time we step on plates then must move tgt. and got 5-6 ppl. so very hard. then had to keep restarting cos kept touching the floor. then had dodgeball. lol. damn funny. firstly, the "ball" they use is wrapped with newpaper. a lot of newspaper. and secured with masking tape. so its damn hard. and pain. yupp. my team lost the first round. then won the nxt one. lol. 4 of us throw at 1 sec 1 girl then win le. lol. then when left hz and joe right joe go throw the ball, then hz throw at the same time. end up their ball rebound. lol. super funny. but the ball right. if you catch, ur hand is super pain de. and stupid me, go catch it dunno how many time. then my hand super red and pain. then got one game must fill up 30 plastic bag of water. but theres no purpose of the game. its just for later the water game. then went down canteen. had water fight. where everyone sabo jack, make hi super wet. then stupid kq lah. at first i not wet de. go throw the stupid thing at me then i wet. wth. at least it was fun. then pizza. but its damn small lah. last year bigger lor. then hz nvr even eat. and they only bought 1 bottle of 7 up. with no cup. =.=then we went up and kq say the sec 3s can go home first. you noe why??? cos that stupid big mouth, arrogant, zi yi wei shi faggot go talk about us lah. ****

apparently, he said that the sec 3s were slackers, not serious, gossip and attitude sucks. and maybe is that stupid apple go ask him tell the juniors about us. WTF. who you think you are lah. you are just our alumni can. the only time you were with us is during your year. and only for a short time only. wad makes you think that you understand us or know us well??? huh?? and fyi. we have changed. we are diff from sec 1 now okay. and if your saying that is based on wad you observed when we were sec1s, you are so wrong. i dunno about the others, but i know that i have changed. i'm not like sec 1. and YOU have changed also. you think you very cool arr? huh? come in on friday only start scolding us. and you scold the sec 1s for wad? they dun even noe ANYTHING can. that was only their 2nd day in AHSRC. and their impression of RC will be worse now. cos they will start thinking that why their seniors all so unreasonable de. look at youself before you bad mouth us to our juniors can. you are just a stupid flirter, dun care about other ppl feelings, just think that u can do wad u want. and who gave you the idea that you can judge US? u alumni big deal arr? we not winning anything now. so wad? now and last time is diff already can. last time got how many schl participate in the competition? now got how many? you go win lah. so pro go win for your own schl lah. why come here talk all these crap about us.

you say we slacker. when did u see we slack? we only slack when we have nothing to do. cos our seniors nvr give us ANYTHING to do. fyi. you think we everytime come cca slack very fun arr? you think we enjoy slacking is it? I DON'T. i want to do something. i also want to help to win something for this cca wad. but robot spoil. then everytime we come, our sec 4 seniors also dun give us anything to do wad. then ppl playing dota not slack arr??? why only scold us. go scold them lah. asshole.

and u say we gossip. then wad were u doing when u said sec 3s get out of the room?? YOU NOT GOSSIPING MEH??? you wanna say anything bad aboutus then just say lah. no nid to ask us to get out wad. no nid to remove the doorknob to the room wad. NO BALL FREAK. you wan just say to me, in my face. you dare to say then say in front of that person lah. u tell our juniors u think they won't tell us de meh? eh. we not like YOU kay. we are DIFF. we have CHANGED. we are more BONDED. we care for our juniors, for our members. unlike YOU. when you were pres. you didn't even care about your own cca members. only care about training. and winning. in the end? also can't win right? our cca is good enough without you coming in to tell us all these crap. tyvm. stop to think nxt time before u wanna say anything about us. you noe why we dun like you so much? its cos you dun even care about ur juniors. which is us. u wanna be so serious for wad? there is a time to be serious. but theres also a time for us to have fun wad. everytime so serious will go crazy wan leh.

cca selection day. you noe wad we did? WE JUST STAYED IN THAT STUPID ROOM COS OUR SEC 4 SENIORS DIDN'T GIVE US ANYTHING TO DO!! like that our fault is it? PLEASE LAH. YOU WAN TALK COCK THINK FIRST CAN. AND NO NID TO BACK STAB PPL BEHIND THEIR BACK RIGHT??? JUST SAY IN FRON TOF US LAH. WHY. SCARED ARR?? YOU SCARED WE ARGUE BACK THEN MAKE U PAISEH IS IT?

and you tell our juniors not to follow our example. you think they will listen to a person bullshitting? no they won't. fyi. we are bonded with the sec 2s kay. dun believe go ask them yourself. ask about their own opinion. YOU ARE JUST TRYING TO CREATE FALSE IMAGES ABOUT US FOR THEM.. i noe the sec 2s won't believe u. but because u said that. now we may not even be bonded with our sec 1s. we had fun playing the games. we bonded at least a little. and cos of your stupid sppech. all of that is gone. destroyed. BECAUSE OF YOU. now they think we very bad. think we like paikia. fuck off lah. normally i dun use those kind of words. even to ppl i hate. but u made me. i have no choice. its the only word that suits u. bastard. you are just making everyone hate u. you think u damn cool arr. go stand down there say your stupid little speech. act lie you are king of our cca. YOU ARE NOT. i'll appreciate it if you just give us advice. not try to break up our cca.

and to another asshole. u said u wanna give up on us. fine go ahead. cos i dun even give a bloody damn about wad u say. you noe why? cos u are just as crappy as the other asshole. but ask yourself. when did you ever have hope in us??? give up lah. go ahead. but let me tell u. there more ppl who know us better, know wad we've been trying to do for this cca. its not my fault u dun appreciate or even see it. cos u are pessimistic. u only see the bad side of ppl. and if u really think that the remaining 3 sec 3s are not fit to be pres then go find your melina or melissa lah. SO PRO THEN GO MAKE THEM PRES LAH. I DUN EVEN CARE ABOUT THE POWER OR AUTHORITY CAN. I JUST WANNA HELP THIS CCA. MAKE IT MORE BONDED. WHEN U HAVE TEAMWORK THEN YOU CAN WIN AT COMPETITION RIGHT.

ASK YOURSELF. WHY THOSE PPL GO IP. PARTLY IS COS OF U GUYS. COS THEY HATE U. AT LEAST WE HAVE LOYALTY TO OUR SCHL RIGHT. WE STAYED HERE. AT AHSRC. NOT LIKE SOME PPL. not that we are worse than them. u think i cannot go ip meh? i could have tried. but i DIDN'T. why? COS AT LEAST I AM LOYAL TO MY CCA. I WANT TO STAY ON. BUT COS OF YOU 2 BASTARDS, I'M STARTING TO REGRET MY DECISION NOW. THANKS TO YOU. you only noe how to complain about other ppl. little bit only complain. cos u are not flexible. theres always 2 side to everything. but u prefer to see the bad side of it. eg: if we are pres, our cca standard will go down. cos we slack. thats wad u think. but on the other hand. at least we will be more bonded. AND I WILL PROVE YOU WRONG.

THAT TIME AT THE S'PORE ROBO-1. WHO WAS THE ONE WHOSE ROBOT CAN'T EVEN COMPLETE 1 ROUND? AND WHOSE ROBOT KEPT RUNNING, TRYING TO COMPLETE ALL 5 ROUNDS BY ITSELF? HUH??? YOU ARE THE ONE WHO IS SLACK. COS U ARE OVERCONFIDENT. IN THE END. WE COULD HAVE BEEN BETTER. but because of YOU and YOUR LACK OF TEAMWORK, we almost didn't even get the merit award.

and i dun even noe why u hate the sec 3s so much esp hz. we have done so much for this cca. and this is wad we get back. ppl complaining about us to our own juniors. u dun even deserve the post as vice pres can. a good leader is not one who lists out all your faults and complains about it, but one who helps u to change for the better. and you. you dun fit that description of a good leader.

nxt time u wanna back stab ppl. do properly lah. dun go around telling the ppl who hate u and like us. cos ur plan will FAIL. and our juniors will tell us. even if we dun ask them. fyi. the sources were from both sec 2s and 4s. so you shld noe that most of the cca is on our side. so just get lost and eat your own shit. dogs.

i dun care if any of you or teacher sees this. cos this is wad i really feel. and theres no point hiding it. since you have stated how much you dislike us. i'll gladly do the same. this is war. and YOU will LOSE.

2009-01-22T20:15:00.003+08:00

SHIT LAH. I THINK I NOT ENOUGH TIME TO FINISH BIO PROJECT LE LEH. HOW????? CRAP SHIT LAH. STUPID TEACHER. THEN STILL GOT AMATH LEH. I LOST THE ASSIGNMENT SO MUST REDO. THEN STILL GOT THE 2 STUPID BIO WS. ****. I'M SUPER DEAD MAN. PLUS I'M SUPPOSED TO HAND IN ON TIME COS I'M THE DUMB BIO REP LAH. WTH...ARGHHHHHHHHHH.........

THEN TMR MR GOH RETURNING CHEM TEST LEH!!!! SHIT LAHHHH

2009-01-22T17:15:00.002+08:00

yesterday had cca. sec 1s came. i was almost late cos no time eat. then i chiong. damn heng lor. or else get fine. slack whole session. cos the sec 1s go learn MM. then we nothing to do. cos our rgp robot spoil. then havent repair. so we go spring lab. then use com a while. then they tell us go take out all the parts. i forgot the word to use le... anw...finish already then go back RC room. then anouncement blahblahblah. then SK got one observation. which is our cca not very focused. also can't blame us right. everytime sec 4 tell us come cca we also nvr do anything de. then they also dun care us de lor. wth. then they go put jia sheng in our rgp grp. then we kaopei them for damn long also dun wan change. damn pissed lah. so we dun care le. robot also give us the spoil motherboard de. then like that of course will have no interest in going cca wad. our grp like sai like that.

anw. today super boring de. but chem last period quite funny. cos mr goh perspire. then his shirt at the back got heart shape lor. damn funny lah. no wonder the ppl in front keep laughing. tmr got welcoming for sec 1s. hope will have pizza. that time only got popiah and some other finger food...haiz. think we're gonna play 2 hour of captain ball again lor. but my leg still aching from the stupid wushu thing. my leg the skin tear lah. wth. cos i think i that time go wear my mum slipper. then very pain. now then i realise. chinese new year coming!!! hope can go visit my aunt again lor. got the dogs very cute. they very guai de lor. won't bark de. but damn sad lah. cos i not like some ppl. got a lot of cousin. or maybe not a lot. but they very close to them. haiz. my mum side only got 5. but 1 20 something. then she always busy going out with her bf. then the other 2 in japan. cos they're japanese. then the last 2...haiz. one still small. and live with my ah ma very far away. the other guy not realy my cousin. cos is the mum divorce then marry my uncle de. then my dad side i not very close to them also. all live so far away de. haiz...how sad.

a lot of hw leh. bio ICT project, 2 ws which is super hard. and a math assignment...sian

2009-01-20T18:10:00.002+08:00

damn sian. everytime nvr post for a few days only then feel like got too many things on my mind, take up too much space. this week was ---- so far. really boring. shall start with sunday then.

sunday
went church as usual. went for the kids worship where we waited for naomi a while. then ruth's dad told her to go service. so i went up with her, abandoning naomi. lol. then no space to sit with the guys, so we sat at some random corner. then "listened" to sermon. which was freaking boring. then the guys kept going toilet lah. their bladder got prob de. then finish. after church skipped ss and went with uncle raymond and aunty emily to JB. not my idea. i dun wanna go de lor. but nid to go. in the end also nvr buy anything. my mum just go in for facial. =.= then nvr do hw. no time

monday
got scolded by stupid chinese teacher for not doing xi zi again. damn sian lah. she go suan me lor. say i'm the only person from 3c the triple sci class who nvr do hw. then 2nd time le. then she say i must buck up and i starting to have a little problem in my studies. WTF. GO DIE CAN. no brain shit. like she really noe me very well like that meh. pls lah. she sucks can. then she go say she have her own way of teaching then say she noe wad she doing. then tell us dun go complain to our parents about her teaching method blah blah blah. cos obviously some teacher told her that we complained lah. then when jing da go say " we not so bad lor. we won't sabo you de." then she say" ying gai bu shi ni men ban de lah. wo zhi dao de." WTF. **** you lah. think you wad. i damn pissed with her after that le lor. lin lao shi teaches so much better can. idiot. hate her like shit lah.

then got book quiz which was crap. the qn open ended then how we noe wad kind of ans they wan lah. wth.

stayed back for cny noticeboard thing. managed to finish. took about 2 hours. drawing the last 2 animals, sticking, painting the red part finish, pasting the small cows, drawing some randon patterns as the borders. dun think our class can win lah. cos i think other classes a lot nicer than ours. then i dun feel like going back alone so waited for hz to do her class the board finish. she damn poor thing lor. 1 person do leh. but at least i got help. lol. then go home about 4 plus. saw weiling at tampines while hz was meeting her customer. lol. cos i saw someone walking like some retard like that. then the head look like mushroom. so confirm is weiling. then after that went home.

today
had CT. chem. freaking hard lah. mr goh still say will be easy. wth. and i dunno how to draw the displacement of air and water thing lah. cos i didn't really study. sian. sure die de lor. geog and physics was boring as usual...esp physics. half the class not listening lah. lol. edna slept with her head in her bag. damn funny. then during geog got someone from outside go sing the lemon tree song. one part damn loud. " i wonder how, i wonder why" lol. damn funny. then at first our class super queit. then that person sing, then we burst out laughing. but nvr see who cos the curtain close. i learnt the most amazing thing...a grassland is a place with a lot of grass. a desert is a place with a lot of sand. =.= geog teacher still say very good. wth. dunno she dumb or dumb lah.

tmr e math test. 10 marks nia. dunno mr wee test for wad de. 3 qn =.= lol. then he still got say the qns will be from the wb. any 3 from 1-100. wth. then the prc scholars thought he ask them do all. LOL. damn stupid.

going for reunion dinner at my aunt's place le. lol. very early right. can get to see her 3 dogs:):):) bye