Monday, May 18, 2009

I AM PISSED. at everything. seriously. this life sucks. i hate it.

got back some results today. sucks man.

bio: 66/100
chinese: 61/90
chem: 51/100

WTF IS THIS LAH. can't believe it. i used to count on my chinese getting A1 if not A2. now its like...B3. dun even have ONE PATHETIC A. except maybe amath...WTH. screwed mye. super damn pissed with myself. when i got back chem paper i know i get very lousy results. but nvr expected it to be so low. i thought that the lowest i could get was at least 60. then after i got back i sit there 5 min dun wanna see the marks. then heard may got 52. and i was wondering..WTH. so low? i shld be able to at least get more than that right? so i happily flipped over the stupid fucking paper. and there it was. big fat stupid 51. WTH. felt like just crushing the whole bloody paper and throwing it away in the bin. i hate mrs lam seriously. she set hard paper nvm lah. then her marking scheme also so damn strict. bloody hell. thanks a lot lah. she just ruined my results for chem. SA1. and my dad's gonna scold me like shit. damn it lah.

after i got back i seriously damn pissed. bad mood rest of chem lesson. and those ppl who think i'm sad or wadever. thanks lah. but not sad. just super damn pissed. like. how the hell can i even get a 51? i nvr get so low for any subject before can. but thanks lah. at least eng okay. mrs hudd was nice. let us watch slumdog millionare. that show is nice lah. haha. lifted my spirits a bit. before some idiot last minute tell me got cca. wth. then i over there watch halfway pissed again. at least can tell like during recess nxt time? i got plans wan leh. yah. planned to go buy present for yan min which is her super belated bday present. and i promised to give her by this wk. so didn't go cca. even if i go i'll be in a bad mood during meeting. dun wanna affect other ppl mood also lah. so i just dun go lor. first time i'm choosing friends over cca. so i guess wad i said at the interview isn't really true lah. that cca comes second. after family. cos now i doesn't seem that important to me anymore. like hius sheung wrote in the letter to cheer me up. friends will always be there. yah. so..thanks guys. think i'll be putting cca behind. studies first. slacked too much alr. seriously changed since last yr. dun see the point of studying anymore. if only i could just drop it.

stressed now lah. wondering how and when to show my dad the results. he says that as long as i try my best its okay. but i know when i show him he'll still scold me. cos its not okay at all. why is this stupid world only caring about results anw. i hate it. bloody irritating. so wad if u get good results? that won't help u when u grow up will it? not like at ur job they'll ask u go calculate how many moles of water there are or wadever shit.

yah. still damn pissed lah. anw. just now went buy the jewellery box for yan min. hahaha. its kinda nice actually. but quite ex. for something so small. lazy post pics. nxt time....procrastinating again...yah. and we bought marshmallows to pput in the box. so cute. lol. its nice lah. for the first time, i agree with amanda's taste.

thats all. there's cca on wed i think. but i really dun feel like going. maybe will be better for some ppl if i dun go lah. i dunno.

too late for regrets. only thing i can do now is pay more attention in class, try not to fall asleep, and study earlier in advance for exams. hope eoy will be much better.

you know what? i think i'll just throw my chem paper away. like right now. that'll solve everything.

Posted by chris:) at 4:15:00 PM