Saturday, October 31, 2009

omg i'm getting damn pissed by my dad. super pissed now.

all he does is nag and nag and nag at me. wth.

go throw rubbish. sweep floor. bathe. EVERY DAMN THING ALSO NEED TO NAG. WTH.

and all he tells my sis to do is clean the stupid piano. and i have to do so many freaking things and i can't even use the bloody com when she has alr used it.

i'm like gonna burst alr. explode with anger. irritation. everything.

and if i do that i'll most probably get scolded again. and be banned from tv and com and wadever shit.

i hate it. everything. sucks.

Posted by chris:) at 4:06:00 PM

Friday, October 30, 2009

i seriously hate it when ppl treat me like trash. take me for granted. sucks.

and irresponsible ppl. like them.

and ppl who shout/scream at me instead of just talking at a normal volume.

and bimbotic ppl.

and friends who are not really your friends at all.

sorry but i've been unhappy or just pissed off this wk. by certain ppl. but things happened which make me ask myself if they are really my friends or not. i dun think friends are someone you just throw stuff that u don't wanna do to. or ppl whom u rely on only when your other friends aren't there. or ppl whom u use to share in buying a present for someone cos u can't afford it or you're just too lazy to get a present yourself.

this may or may not sound like you. but its only in general.

i tried to be tolerant. to just accept and understand it. but i can't. reached my limit. and i just snapped. yesterday. and today. i just walked off from smth that i didn't wanna do cos i felt that it wasn't my responsibility. since we had an agreement and allocated the duties alr. but i didn't want to be someone that ppl can dump stuff that they dun have time or dun wanna do to. esp when i waited for them to take their own time to put their bags and then they still raised their voice to me. wth lah. fyi, i'm not a trash bag where u can just dump stuff u don't want to. or a superhuman where i can do everything and anything. i'm just a human like you. a person who has feelings. and i don't like the way you treat me.

maybe its cos of ur new friends. actually i think its cos of ur new friends cos you've become just like them. bimbotic bunch of bimbos.

sorry.

Posted by chris:) at 6:17:00 PM

Saturday, October 24, 2009

wth lah. super pissed with my family lately.

i whole day nvr even use com then my sis still dun let me use. and my dad also. idiot. "sleep at 12 o clock" great lah. only like 20 mins to use. wth. like i care. idiot.

that time also. just because this time exam didnt score well for chinese and physics then want me get tuition. wth lah. then he want me to find chem, chinese physics tuition meh. still got amath lah. think i very free arr. what makes ppl think that having more tuition is good lah. wth. no brain sia. got so many tuition also no time do hw right. in the end also fail. no brain.

at least mon no schl. can use com more. but still need pack room. super messy. feel like just throwing away all the notes. zzz. need file notes again. cos i think study that time i took out then anyhow dump on the table and floor. so now a few stacks of it...damn.

i wanna watch WGM....

Posted by chris:) at 11:45:00 PM

Thursday, October 22, 2009

i hate cramps. pain...

results sucks. lazy type out.

went out with may and fedora a while today. just now. library, popular, BK...

badminton later. dun feel like playing today leh. cramps... T.T

addicted to WGM lately. cca tmr. randomness. hope it'll be fun.

Posted by chris:) at 6:23:00 PM

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

nehhhball today was fun. hahaha. name created by xiu. captain's ball combine with bball. aiya. actually its mainly captain's ball just that you score by shooting into the bball hoop. super fun. hahaha. cos me jolyn and lydia own them like crap. i'm sorry. hahaha. its okay. still got nxt time.

GOT BACK 7 PAPERS TODAY. like WTH. SEVEN LEH! they wanna kill us or wad. i got weak heart lah. zzz. super funny cos at like 7.50 mrs lee came in with bio then she talking halfway mrs tan also came then the whole class was like OMG. wth. lol. havent even start lesson got 2 subs come le. sucks lah result. a lot of Bs...i think so far only amath and ss A can. zzz. no choice. too late for regrets. thought shld have done better for chinese though.

was being pissed at wby while she nagged and crapped as usual for 20 min. cos my chinese deproved like crap. seriously sucked. last year always A de. often A1. now like B/C. super pissed with wby lah. then she still say we childish, immature blah blah blah. wth. she doesn't even teach properly can. seriously, i can't even think of one lesson when she's not scolding anyone...or crapping. hate her. spent more time on chinese and neglected physics and this shit is wad i get. great.

hope can get like B3 for chem. pull up overall.

so dead. think i irrelevant for eng compo. dunno wad i writing lah that time. wth. nvm. over alr. only can pray and hope. and take comfort in amath...

Posted by chris:) at 6:29:00 PM

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

too many things happened. want to write everything here but will be damn long. so i give up. not gonna write much about thoughts and stuff..

but smth happened recently which made me question myself whether i'm actually being with the right ppl. as in my friends. i dunno how i've been treating them. am i cherishing them? i think i do. just that maybe sometimes i appear not to. i dunno. cos somehow i dun really feel like i'm being appreciated.

i waited. so long. but none of them actually bothered. so i gave up. and decided to hang out with becky. i dunno is it just me? or do they forget their friends that easily? why do i always have to be the one left behind? waiting. forgotten.

i hate that damn feeling. being left behind and forgotten.

felt angry, irritated and somewhere inside, hurt.

and so even though my weekend was supposed to be a fun one since exams are over and i had a bbq, i felt miserable. it sucked. a lot. at bbq i couldn't even eat. just ate a bit of bee hoon, chicken, beef, curry and 2 cups of drinks. and stoned in front of the tv thinking. even on sunday. when we waited so damn long just for one person so we could all go to service together. that stupid person decided to go to another one without us. is that the way ppl are supposed to be treated? friends? i dun think so. and then i spent the nxt 15 mins being pissed at that person and the whole day thinking about everything that happened.

not blaming anyone for anything. just think about it. is that the way you treat your friends? cos if you dun wan ppl to treat you that way then dun treat others that way. yeah. maybe you have commitments or smth. you're supposed to go somewhere else. sure. but the thing is they didn't even bother looking during break time. i had to go find them and saw a bunch of them there eating together. that's wad pisses me off. like wth.

it hurts man. i just realised.

and now. great. i'll be left behind again. alone. whole empty big damn house to myself. how nice. while my dad and sis fetch my mum to eat together and send her to church for meeting. and here i have to buy my own food and eat. myself. alone

thanks man. thanks a lot.

Posted by chris:) at 4:51:00 PM