Tuesday, September 29, 2009

bleh. i think i'm going crazy.

yesterday the oven thing was ticking while cooking something and i heard drums. yeah. i told my sis off her mp3 and she told me it was the oven. after i strained to hear it for like 10 mins wondering wad that sound was. now i think i'm stupid. T_T

haven't really started revision and EOY's in like 9 days. T_T so dead man.

i've got sunburn. damn. super irritating. i think last time got a bit alr lor. the stupid sun so freaking hot lah. and its getting hotter. walked for almost 30 min in the SUPER SUPER HOT sun on sat. on the way to church after bala. seriously super hot. so now my cheeks quite red. worse than last time. which is last wk. and my skin super dry. and its peeling. eeeeewww. yuck. i hate it lah. putting super a lot of cream recently. like moisturizer or smth. loreal. lol. sucks. cos i dun think it helps. getting worse...maybe i shld start putting sunblock everytime i go out. zzz.

if someone told me last year that i would be in a triple science class without my sec 2 friends, i would have said IMPOSSIBLE. if someone said that i would be friends with the super smart 2A ppl like kunmei, lydia, ruth, etc..i would have said impossible too. but that is exactly wad i'm doing now. and it seems quite weird. cos i would have nvr expected that.

got 42/50 for chinese test. but i didn't feel happy at all. just relieved that my results weren't too diff from the rest of them. meaning i wasn't super low and they weren't super high. so i guess expectations of myself have changed. not sure if that's a good or bad thing though. the thing is being in this kind of class changes you. at first u might feel that u dun really care. cos even if everyone gets super high marks, as long as u meet ur expectations its okay actually.

but after a whil u start to get influenced by them, so u have higher expectations and you'll just end up feeling more stressed when everyone gets higher than u or you're one of the lowest. even though your results are considered good in other classes and even in your past expectations.

so i'm like stressing myself out. not a lot. but enough to make me feel like giving up on myself.

i should start mugging. now. but i'm not. and i won't. i know.

Posted by chris:) at 6:55:00 PM