Monday, May 31, 2010

moving to tumblr temporarily. if i can't figure out a way to put the tagboard and links there then i'll most probably change back to here. but mainly i'll be posting there first.

whitegrey-sketches.tumblr.com


can't think of a better name for it. so dun blame me if it sounds too long:)

have fun. holidays are here:)

Posted by chris:) at 8:18:00 PM

Saturday, May 29, 2010

considering changing my blog to tumblr.
seems easier to use. more fun too. hahaha. still considering. but like i dun really know. so have to see how first bah:) gonna slp soon. i'm on a korean show rampage:D

Posted by chris:) at 11:51:00 PM

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

whats wrong with ppl these days. doing stuff for the wrong reasons.

going for cell last sat was a wise choice:D interesting stuff. changed my perspective of some churches. cos i dun think they're actually teaching their members the right stuff. like some actually focus more on wealth instead of god. i dunno. hard to explain without being too judgemental and without naming any. naomi shared a story with me too. and i dun think speaking in tongues can be learnt right? like just by praying. it's more of a gift. yet someone told me there's some cells in some churches where all their cell members can speak in tongues. it's kinda freaky i think. and sort of fake. but no one really knows i guess. it's btw them and god after all. they can pretend for all i care.

another one jon shared was damn funny. like there's this pastor who'll say "can you feel the wind? god is in the wind..." that kind of stuff. but isn't it contradicting what the bible says? cos by saying that you're implying that if you dun feel the "wind", god isn't there? but isn't god supposed to be in you? ahhh. nvm. just some thoughts. quite dumb lah i think.

now i know why my dad opposed to my sis when she suggested changing to that church. hahaha.

but most ppl actually join that church cos of their friends and they think it's cool. cos of the worship and all. which is actually going there for the wrong reason in the first place dun you think?

Posted by chris:) at 10:59:00 PM

Saturday, May 22, 2010

wasted my time going to some condo to give out flyers but couldn't even get in...

stupid security guard.

stupid schl.

they didn't even arrange properly lah.

then like almost my whole class went there for nothing.

and one grp managed to get in cos they took cab and the stupid guards didn't check the cab so they were stopped when trying to get out. hahaha. damn stupid. like wth. wads the point of not letting them go out lah. super dumb can.

and i tell u the weather was killer. and stupid ppl got off the bus early so had to walk all the way to the place. when we could have stayed in the air con bus longer and alighted directly outside the place. haiz.

wanted to go cca de. then need do this stupid thing. in the end go there for nothing and the thought of climbing the hill to go back to schl really put me off. so i decided to go home. kinda sad. wanted to see how those ppl were doing. how they scolded ppl. hahaha. oh well. nxt time then.

cos prac tmr. plus cell. somehow dun really wanna go cell anymore. like no purpose. and i find no joy in doing that.

oh yes. i think i'm crazy lah. i borrowed like 6 books from schl library to read. and 2 more from nlb just now. plus the 2 last time which i have yet to really finish. that makes 10 books. zzz. minus one. read time traveller's wife alr. i like how the author uses parts of diff poems to link to the story. interesting and unique writing:)

gonna slp soon i guess.

Posted by chris:) at 12:41:00 AM

Monday, May 17, 2010

horrible. when you can't even rely on the one thing you thought you could to pull up your marks, where does that leave you? stranded on a sinking island i guess. die.

i suck. wth lah. study so hard also like useless like that. normally class test the day before chiong also can get at least B lah. this is like....super duper demoralising can. not just one leh. like a few. and i have a feeling that the rest won't be much better. if it is it's a miracle. and i desperately need many miracles now. to save my SA1. help....i dunno leh. is it the paper that's hard or i'm not trying hard enough? cos i think i studied harder than last year alr. though i know i wasn't 100% prepared. at least also 70% wad. then got this kind of shit results. haiz. esp eng lah. when i got the paper i was staring at that stupid single digit compre mark and trying to comprehend wad it is lah. trying to think wads the total mark. i sat there staring at the stupid paper for like 1 min and then i rmbed its out of 25. and then i just felt like ripping the darn paper apart and shredding it into many many tiny pieces and throwing it away. felt like crying lah. but it's okay. i won't cry over stupid stuff. unless i failed it. then i'll just feel even more pissed with myself. compo also. 21/30 when i should have gotten at least a 23. stupid. they want personal stories right? that's wad i wrote. look where i ended up. zzz. then the stupid marker also. i use repetition. like it's a style of writing wad right? then comment there: repeating redundant. wth man. if i ever find out who marked my paper i'll go slap that person. really hard.

tmr will be spammed with results again. damn tiring lah. dun care le. i shall enjoy seeking comfort in my laptop and youtubing while i can.

Posted by chris:) at 8:13:00 PM

Friday, May 14, 2010

tired. doesn't feel as though exams are over though. still feel kinda stressed and tired. i'll probably be better after slping late tmr though:D

torturous 2 weeks plus of exams. horrible. half of them i probably died. hahaha. esp amath paper 2. nvm. over. shall not talk about it.

went orchard there eat with sheen, gold and potassium. hahaha. even though i felt like going home for some reason. i only realised why after i got home. hahaha. pms. nvm. ate some ex stuff then walked around at 313 somerset. the shops stuff all super nice lor. but all quite ex also. and oh oh oh!!! i think i'm in love with hmv. hahaha. didn't realise they sell so many things. would buy almost half the shop if i could. all so nice....hahaha. its kind of like a clothes shop, cd shop, dvd shop, electronics and gaming shop PLUS BOOK STORE combined into one. so cool. we spent damn long in there. and the only thing we got was sheen's jap mag. lol. but still nice to see and touch. hahaha.

tiring ride home on mrt. packed like sardines. stuffy. then when i was walking home from the bus stop saw this little girl bout maybe 3/4 years old sitting on the dirty and a little wet floor wailing. super loud and high pitch kind. at first i just ignore. then like her bro got pissed with her and began shouting at her which made her cry more. for like 5 mins. ppl were actually stopping to stare lah. but no one actually did anything. zzz. felt like walking up to him and slapping him. hard. and then i had to force myself to walk away. zzz. and then they actually took the same lift as me and the girl was still sniffing and the stupid bro just pretend nothing's wrong. wth. so sad lah. had a strong urge to just like at least pat her head or smth. reach out to her and tell her its okay. that her bro's just being a total asshole. haiz. and did i mention he's fat? super. made me hate him more. not that i'm prejudiced against ppl who have more fatty acids and glycerol...

and wads wrong with teens these days. they have to like write everything they do with some other person on their blogs is it? why do they even wanna tell others about their private stuff. like smth that's so private. as in if u guys really love/like each other it doesn't mean that you have to go around showing it right? shldn't it be smth btw the both of you only? i dunno. that's wad i think. cos i think its disgusting and irritating. eesh.

finally can continue watching my wgm alr:D hahaha. jokwon and ga-in super funny.

oh and i'm ermmm...crap i forgot the word for it. yan2 jiu1. yes. i'm yan jiu-ing a really cool book which contains many extracts from many sketchbooks of many artists/designers/illustrators. rather cool stuff:D thats all.

oh right. cca. hope can start soon and can go back a few more times to help. and watch interesting stuff. hahaha. so sad handedover le. i wouldn't mind scolding. she deserves it. some juniors are really.....i can only say too straightforward. or else they type/write/say stuff without thinking and processing it through that minute little puny brain or theirs. its gotten so bad that i think it's like cyber bullying alr lah. seriously. nvm. see wad happens first.

Posted by chris:) at 11:37:00 PM

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

IT'S FINALLY RAINING!!!! WOOHOOO!!!!

seriously the weather is....i thought yest night was gonna rain but it didn't and then today's so hot and yet it's raining now. wth. well, at least it's raining, so who cares:D but i hate waking up and feeling so sticky when it's so hot in the morning...esp after i walk up the stupid hill to schl.

i hope i change sit and sit under the fan:D so nice.

handover like so fast. so rush. i kind of dun want it to come. so many things to do before handover. tie up stuff. aar...handover ppt...presents...cards...but then i won't have enough time to study....like now. so i guess it's a good thing after all. slowly getting into my study mode alr. sort of. well, at least i feel like i wanna study. it's just the "getting my ass in front of my table and start doing my work" that's hard. but after i get over that hurdle i'm perfectly fine. until maybe 20 mins later. hahaha. MUST CONCENTRATE.

i really dun understand why we have to do some stupid presentation on spain and tonga for sel. such a total waste of time, when we can use that time to start on our revision. and who's the one always nagging at us to start our revision? the one who makes us do these stupid stuff. ironic huh.

was rather upset at myself today. "infocomm or robotics cooler? infocomm" thanks man. can't you at least tell a white lie? and u said it in front of me. i thought you'd have chosen the other. after all i told u about robotics. seems like i wasted my breath. no offense but i hate ppl who think robotics is nerd or slack. just cos they dun see wad we do. and dunno wad we do anw. they dun see how freaking hard we work during competition period. and then when i tell them i have to go cca to train, they'll just laugh and say: "hahaha. train wad? got stuff to train meh?" believe me, this has happened many times, just that you guys dun even realise it. and then i'm upset with myself cos i feel like a failure for not being able to change other ppl's perspective of my cca after all. despite being the vp. i thought i'd at least be able to change one person's view. apparently not. not even her. and then i'm disappointed with you.

cos when u came to my cca room and stood outside and saw us train you said: "wah, so cool! like very fun leh. i wanna try!" so all that was a lie? cos you dun even mean wad u say. thanks. "friend"

Posted by chris:) at 6:03:00 PM

Sunday, April 4, 2010

i really feel like changing my blogskin but i'm just too lazy and busy to do so....i'd rather be watching vids on youtube or smth...haiz. lets just try looking around and trying to find a nice one first shall we:)

can't wait for handover. but its still 2 weeks away. once cca's over i can start focusing more on studies. go for bala's paper days too. cos i feel guity not going everytime:(

super happy yest:) cos someone came back. hahaha. someone i could talk to while i was bored:)

i just realised there's so many ppl's bday in april...that's bad:( cos i just got my allowance and i dun wanna spend it on buying presents. expensive presents. cos i dun think anyone will get me any nice stuff for my bday anw. they can't even rmb it:( everyone doesn't rmb it. when i bother remembering theirs. fine. be like that. i dun want and shall not get started on the friends thing again. makes me depressed.

relationships are soooo complicated. hence i've decided that i'll probably not be involved in any relationships until i'm about 20:D yay.

...so early eat..."shut down..set the table...bring out the food..." damn. stop nagging will you. i hate it.

Posted by chris:) at 6:10:00 PM

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

sucks. everything.

not that i can't wake up or anything in the morning. i just can't find the strength to get out of bed and wash up and change and go to school. so tiring.

and then i keep finding faults with others when i'm not exactly perfect myself. i can't help it. i'm trying to be real nice.

but i really dun like ppl who are like so obsessed about relationships and stuff. i mean, come on man, how old are they only. so young date what shit lah. like what's the whole point if they know they're gonna break up sooner or later. its not like that will be their lifetime partner right? isn't it rather dumb? when they know that they're not actually truly serious about the other person but they think that they are?

my sis lah. and that stupid guy from church whom i dun even like. he's so short and weirdly proportioned and weird and disgusting. like wth. wads with her taste. anw she's only sec 1 and she wants to do this kind of crap when she can't even get her studies right. my parents should just confiscate everything lah. mp3, laptop, phone. she's super immature and spoilt and inconsiderate lah. doesn't even spare a thought for my parents. and then she still can say wads wrong with loving someone, its not like i can control it. like wth. ITS NOT EVEN LOVE FOR GOODNESS SAKE, ITS JUST AN INFATUATION. argh. sometimes i really wonder how can ppl be so dumb. seriously, young ppl these days....haiz

you know it makes me feel as though i wanna be super nice to them to make up for the way she treats them. but like i keep thinking that they only care about her and dun relly care about me so wads the point of trying to be fillial when my efforts won't be appreciated? it just sucks.

i saw my childhood freind's mum and his sis on fri after dinner. and then i just felt so depressed all over again. missing those days when his parents were still together, when we were in the same church, when we were good friends. super good. probably the best friend i ever had so far. but its over. i miss those times.

you never know how much you miss someone and how important they are to you until they're gone. its true.

and now all i can do is regret. those decisions. that separated me from them.

i just realised. i really shouldn't have come to a triple sci class. i shouldnt be in 4C at all. it sucks. those "friends"...they aren't even your true friends. cos you dun treat your friends like that. they have no idea wad it means to have friends. real friends. friends who'll stand by you, who'll place you before themselves, who really listen to you when you're troubled. or maybe i'm just not good enough for them.

Posted by chris:) at 6:56:00 PM

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

comp finally over. tiring 4 days. everyday wake up like 6.30 reach junior's hse like 12. haiz. by the time wash up go slp like 1. only slp like 5 hours. come back mon and today i slept for like 10 hours lah. really super tired. mon 12 hours:D hahaha. and i was half asleep during dinner on sun. lol. seriously. i was sleeping there while eating my ramen. well, at least it was worth it lah. didn't go back empty handed. merit award for R1. but we could have done better. maybe 3rd? with some luck. if the sun didn't choose to shine on that particular spot during our run. haiz. lesser random errors. and if both robots could have completed the track in the same run. damn joke lah. jack's team completed all 5 runs during the first try then ours completed all 5 during the 2nd. suay. or else timing confirm below 1 min. shld be can get third de. then become 6th. merit. haiz. nvr mind. i shall be contented. did better than last year. we shall beat wrss someday.

rmb feeling very frustrated on sat night while we were training cos lithium batt spoilt. the stupid wire came out. meaning we couldn't charge it again. damn sad. so had to use green batt which wasn't even ours. thing is, while i was there feeling damn sad cos i felt like our team was screwed cos we had no batt, i needed someone to talk to and i was just thinking. you know wad, there's no one to turn to. all those supposed friends, they didn't even bother sending a sms or wadever to encourage you or anything. thanks sheen though. she's like the only one who encouraged me while i was feeling so depressed and demoralised. thanks man.

i dunno wad to say. its not like they dunno or wadever. how hard is it to just sms? do they even care? idun think they even rmb that i have a comp. wadever man. seems like i'm not worthy remembering. some kind of friend.

thank god though. i rmb before the R1 qualifying round i was damn nervous. in the toilet i was like praying just let us at least get into finals. we're alr out of F1. we have to win smth. get into finals at least. during comp also. my junior said my hand was shaking as i was programming and i didn't even know. lol. but there also damn cold. when comp then suddenly feel damn cold. merit's good enough.

Posted by chris:) at 2:45:00 PM